Nanaz's Story

13 March..

2012-02-13T02:06:00.000-08:00

Chaaaaaak !

hihi , its riadah moment.

Tp its mon ; stressing out as if it cant get any worst day

Gahh,skrg ni 'musim' badminton ohhh..riadah je badminton

Oh, lst sat had my first ever immersion.

Immersion sej dgn ASIS (sains alam shah)

Then then somewhere a week b4 that we had maulud.

Awesome-posem.

That me and my ahli2 rumah sukan.Syahbandar.

We choose to wear purdah.

Won second place *smug face*

Im so grateful im a Syahbandar's member. HA-HA.

Tu nanti

Going to attend this super hugee event on 27th march

FRSIS

International Symposium

something mcm ada 20 buah negara plus semua local SBP

akan dtg my school for conference.

English stuffs ;'))

I- Am selected- as the fasci/helpers

Tk ku sangkaaa.

Tp ever since I found out psl tu , I've been thinking about camera

All-the-time

Nak kumpul duit and stuffs

but thats the thing, when you're in any places like Uni's and asrama.

Money is never enough.. Fffff

Tk , sebenarnya kalau hari biasa. Ok, cukup

Sekolahje kot. Tp psl nk kumpul duit ni, aiyaa2

Im looking foward to but Canon 1100D

Ok , I wonder how're everyone.What's sbs's spm's activities

heee ~

Dah , tk boleh on lama2. org punya laptop.

Ohh , tahun ni my school dh kasi bawak laptop

Abah mcm nk beli tp I requested/demand for camera first obviouslyyy

Byeeeeeeeee

I Wont be home until 9th march.

Way to go woman :D

Oh , Spm 2012's canditate's :

Good Luck for Our upcoming exam,

Walaupun 'test 1' je.

Nak berjaya kita kena sentiasa constant & maintain.

Dont ever underestimate this kind of test.

Cos what make you so sure you're gonna suceed in the next exam,hah?

Lol , gila semangat.

Ok byee.

First month , final year

2012-01-26T03:27:00.003-08:00

Wee~
wassup humaaan
See,im in the cheerfull mood.
Soooo, Senior year starts *applause to me*
haha

Social life
I remember masa cuti, I was sooo scared nk balik sekolah
mcm traumatize gila babi. Mcm kena mental pressure
Oh well, I did. mental pressure/mental buli by the guys
You since day 1 until the last day of school for last year,
its was like scariest days of my life.
There was moment when I was soooo afraid to leave the asrama, masuk class,nk jln2 time riadah, masuk dewan makan,nak masuk dewan kalau ada perjumpaan pape pun mcm dh half dead dh aku. It was super insecure.
Seriousssss , right after aku dh mula 'ok' untuk stay, that was like the 'kemuncak' diorg kacau2,
In case you dnt get it, diorg mmg mcm tu. dh lumrah alam bak kata diorg.
and aku kena teruk cos I was the new kid in town , so obvioslyyy~
Tappi, thankgod. Tahun ni,starting je tahun ni, everything stop. And aku sendiri pun,automaticnya berani untuk melakukan itu dan ini.I grew strong and feeling awesomeeee. Settle,so bila itu sudah settle. Baru gua boleh hidup lama kat sini.

Then Sekolah,class dan dorm.
Uuuuuuuh~ I wanna start off with jawatans :)
Pbsm ; Bendahari
Class ; Assistant.monitor
Rumah sukan : Ajk tingkatan 5
Dorm : Bendahari Dorm

unit : Pbsm
Club : Sains alam sekitar
Sukan : Basketball
Rumah sukan : Syahbandar(green)
Dorm : D
Class : 5 Omega-ga-ga

Soo,yeayy ada jawataaan . Mostly bendahari , haha

Im in 5 OMEGA : Class yg 3 dari 4. Consists of 26 boys, 6 girls. Yeap. freaking six girls! , Guru class ; Uztazah.Setakat ni, Im ok with my class. starting to love em lah jgk, you know how funny boys get. Cuma how I wish ada lagi perempuan.Oh, class aku 'power' ada Ketua pengawas,ketua batch , pen. ketua batch. Geddit?

Dorm : Masih sama, Dorm D. Mcm last year ting.1.sebelah musolah(surau kecik).
Plg dekat dgr tangga,plg jauh dgr toilet. (satu tingkat ada 3 dorm sederet = satu rumah sukan, tp lelaki double) Aku dpt katil bawah,Nasib baaaaaaik . *pheww
Tp last year ada 11 f4. tp this year tinggal 5 org f5 je dlm dorm, lain2 dh jd mommy dorm junior (ketua dorm) or pengawas.
-Check out the pic down there-

Study & rutin study
Oh,,study so far okeeey la.
On track :))
Tapi yg pressurenya sbb, we just had new pengetua this year. so he's like veryyyy good. Personally dia baik(&comel ) He ask to call him Ayahanda. and professionally, he's gooood ..Bnyk transformasi dia dh &akan buat. and best/worst of all : He want things to get done A.S.A.P
dia punya moto is something like "Kerja esk hantar hari ini" Geddit? hand in before due date..
So kami kami ini, pelajar form 5. Teramat lah sgt pressure sbb imagine first week dah ada class tambahan masa prep tuhh. o-m-g
mula2 tuhh, mcm gila ahh every night kena stay up buat homework, riadah = buat homework.
Sbb time prep ada class, tp skrg diorg dh tukar Prep start at 8, class at 9. So ada masa sejam buat hmrwrk..
So, skrg still ok. Tkda stress smpi nak mati. Just following the track :)

Some additional from last year
Remember I had this one guy I called babi lah apa lah..
Oh come on' I've been only talk about him jeee kat sini
Remember how I fkng struggle to make things 'stop'?
soooo, apparently this year. First day, aritu dah bertembung dia kat Jusco. masa tuh mcm "Ahh,bad luck there buddyh"
haha, and the very first week he WAS membabi seperti biasa. Annoyinggg, thats the best word
Sooo,dari hari rabu sampai the next next friday he was..being himself "annoying" mcm nak gilaa
*If you understand the story, you would understand why I hate him sooo much for being "annoying" LOLOLOl*
anway,Friday tu kann,omg nak nangis.
You know what I did. We, the f5 tgh ramai ah jgk kat dewan conducting the new f1's orientation week.
Then the whole fucking day dia mcm as I described. So at the end, betul2 masa dh nk balik he was like "Nazreen,sini jap"
"Apa bendaaa? *tgh bengang*'
"Tkda la aku nk ckp something..Sorry la aku kacau2 kau ni, buat kau bengang semua kan.."
"......................."
"Alaa,kau marah ehh?"
"Psssst..ishhh. Ok2, *walk away" - I was really in rush ok, a group guys are coming,tk kan nk ddk situ sorang2
Then, I was sooo bengang Dia mintak maaf at me - Ha ha
I end up curse mcm nk gila"diam ah babi,Ee, babi sial sewel suka kacau org. Muka mcm drug addict. Babi babi babi~

"Then he sorta of kejar dari dewan smpi dewan makan,about a size of badminton court , guess what he did, dia pergi nyayi lagu "ILHAM ; smthg like beribu bintang di langit kini menghilang.." konon nak appologize
"*speechless, cover senyum, walk fast.Muka bengang"
The rest of the boys were like "amboi,nazreen.Blablablabla
Then the nights end
*btw,kalau kau rasa part dia nyayi tu sweet, jgn dohh. Dia player, so mesti lah 'sweet' -WTF >.<

Days after that until now, we dont talk to each other anymore.
He doesnt annoys me anymore,I dnt talk about him tat much anymore.
Its literally ends,So despite the Hugeeeee guilty plessure.
Its all gooooooooooood baby, finally found a way nak suro dia diam.
Sangaaaat2 berharap It last forever. Dia ni biasanya kalau 'stop'
lps certain cuti pandjang mula balik,so prepare for the worst darlingg
Cuma nanti lah,nak dekat spm aku mintak maaf dgn ikhlaaas pasal aku selalu curse kat dia.
Sumpah rasa guiltyy , as a human.

So overall, everything's great.
Social life, Ok
Study, boleh la tahan
Tough days ahead,Fuhh prepare naz preparee
I could continue talking,nak ckp psl some "good value" I see in the boys over here,
hahaha,tp I think this thing Is longg enough. And That could wait..
Oh,skrg ni aku aku dah sgt selesa duk sini
I've been living my days thinking "This is temporary"
It took me sooo long to get use to it, what if it took me that long to get over it ?
>.<

Dorm aku , masa first day sebelum budak2 datangg.ada dua side. So 1 dorm = 20 org.

Goodbye,

2012-01-02T10:00:00.001-08:00

Bye korang

bye handphone

bye twitter

bye facebook

bye blog

bye tv

bye masak2

bye rumah

bye KL

bye world

Bye L.i.f.e

Aku pergi sekejap

tanggungjawab disana

I've taken over 7++months,tinggal 11 bulan lg,lps bln 6.Aku akan jd mcm robot yg dh diactivate utk belaja,so masa tu mmg mcm \%@@%&!!!.

Tp tkpa yg penting aku stay

nth la apa akan jd

Im not gonna ask myself it is gonna it at the end,cos honestly wtvr the answer is It wont make ant doff

Im already here,stuck dlm ruang yg tk berpagar..haha

You know how supeeeer pessismistic i am.

Ok,ni je some craps before tido.

so Tc,people.

To the 95's Selamat menempuh tahun SPM . Our turn pulak en,tk sangka..

p.s :blogging guna phn,bnyk typing error :)tt

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60 hours to go

2011-12-31T02:20:00.000-08:00

Haaa, this might be the last post. idk,
so, I've 'devided' my packing up to 3 section
1 ) punggah balik barang pilih apa yg tk nk.
2) Beli apa yg tkda
3) Kemas balik.

so the thing is , baru no1 dh siap.Ngee~
adoi waiting for mama and abah nk beli barang.

Hmm,I was just going through some mind-list on things im gonna miss.
Which i wasnt able to do on my first trip there.Cos honestly I didnt thought im gonna miss anyone ;)
sooo (if you thing this list is pretty stupid, well sorry cos thats is just me. And I find that this list change from time to time,shuffle kedudukan )

1.Freedom; Being Lifeless ; Being NOT fake

2.Entertainment/media ;Tv, Twitter ; My Virtual bff ;') #foreveralone.haha

3.Home ; Baking , bilik

4.Kak nani's Chemistry; ok,ni agk pelik. But yes, I love Chem , i love her ;)

5.Sbs: Oh mestilaa.The comfortablesness. Its just so akward over there -.-

Alahh, bottom line is I'll be missing my life

Which is Normal.

so moving on

Things im scareeeed of *deep deep sigh*

One and only : Im scared of my schoolmate

Tiba tiba bila fikir psl everything.

Haih, scary it is people..

Cant explain cos i'll look so bitchyyy.

and 'they' might even go post my blog at their page.

Tp tkpa , I believe I can get over it *thumbs up*

and mcm thinking the fact

Going through everything all over again, haih
Sumpah tk nk, rasa mcm nk lari.

balik sekolah, lepak for awhile then ada prep petang.(which is the part I plg benci through out a day there)

Ishhh, nanti kena start all over again psl culture shock,

Sebenarnya its just fine enough: Kalau aku tk rebellious.Ha-Ha

Tp tkpaa , I will get over it soon , hihi.
Right now im not having those negative thoughts
Im just so scare of everything when I think about it.
Ishh , never get too comfortable biatch.Dh kaata aritu, tk dgr
Ni lah effect cuti lama sgt
I shouldnt stay home too long

Dh laa, nanti2 lah post lg

New year eve yaawwww
Nth la apa plan family malam ni.
All i need is to go out and beli brg.
Its 6.30 and mama is still out the whole day,
Tinggal besok jeeeeeee
Mon is all about finding peace.
lol =.=

Past present

2011-12-15T11:37:00.001-08:00

Its late late night and im in the room , Melayan perasaan

just that,Bfore holiday starts,I alwaaays remind myself Dont get too comfortable kat rmh,cos I kno im gonna need it

Tp ahh damn,obviously I can..

i mean my life had pretty much been everything got to do with internet an tv shows,people come in second..Twitter and blogger are the bff and I am perfectly comfortable that wayy

So yehh,back to the 'negative thoughts I tk lah rasa nk keluar,obviously it has been so longg and Im Happy 'enough' there (utk tk mati depression),Tp since cuti ni I realize i've a Hugee unsolved anger inside of me,you can tell on how I treat em' . mmg lain,cpt gila rasa nk marah..Ckp bila perlu and so full of fake.

But worst of all? There's a part of me feels like saja tk nk study/score in a way of saying PADAN MUKA. Like wtf right? I lg smngat nk study masa dec2009,which is the dec bfore PMR compare to this one,the dec break bforeSPM

So get it? there's guilty but at the same time there's anger.

So right now,Im super scared,how I wish it just a goddamn nightmare,cukuplah the past 7months.It has been a really really great experience,tp sudah sudah lahh.I have the real world in front of me, knp nk take a step back? -.- bring down the ego,Bitch

Its yr life afterall,

> yehh? I dnt give a F

>Just Waiting to die

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Day

2011-12-14T09:26:00.000-08:00

Gahh,smlm first time keluar kl utk cuti ni, as in gi jalan area Klcc and stuffs

Tp more like 3 hours je =.=

Prettyyy intrestingg

hahaha,so what i planned was, nak pergi pav then balik dgn mama which is kat working kat the petronas,klcc

and the reason I wanted to go Pav was just to *guess what
I nk pergi lepak2 to all bakery yg ada kat Pav tu

LOLZZ,yeaah

no seriouslyy

Like,Lilttle piece of heaven,The loaf another 2/3 shop tk igt.

I mean i was at my 'highest-mengidam-point'

hahaha,no jokee. Yalah since like everyday 24/7 kat rmh tgk cooking shows,so slowly I become so desperate nk makan this and that..
Ok fine I talk tooo much on that,

So anyway,around 3 Along ask me to tolong her for her assigment . Have to sorta of blakon a short vid.
so plan nk buat kat tasik ampang.Tp hujan,so end up buat Axis Atrium je,depan rumah haha
She said im gonna get upah rm10 from her friends

so we end up buying tutti fruti,macarons and Red Velvet

*and thats the reason I sanggup cancel my plan nk gi pav, cause those 3 are pretty much enough

Then blablaa,by 5.30 she send me utk naik bas to klcc,since traffic were baaaad as usual or worst,idc

and and Ya Allah,dlm bas itself is pretty much a challenge,haha

first lps naik,smwhere suppose-to-be 10 minutes left to reach klcc

This group of 'foreigner' naik, like super jam-packed! *feeling I cant state but definitely how it feels like*

There were like 9 Races there ok, the standrd Malay,Chinese,indian then there's Black,Arabian, benggali(proper language),Myanmar, Indonesia, even Mat Salleh.
almost every race you can find here, xcept the european je tkda.

Tu la kerja aku on the bus, tgk diorg semua

Like ok lah , pretty awesome how 'multi-racial' a bus can get,tp..*angry grinn*

and the road were obviusly lmbt gilaa

But the thing is, bila dh smpi klcc punya bus stop yg biasa tu diorg tk nk stop pun

No wait, they did stop but the ticket-man were busy checking sapa dh bayar

and I cant effing get out, they were all over the place, I cant just slip in

Too many touchy touchy, Erghh

So end up , dkt the next bus stop I (had to) slip in

Was just like "Excuse meeeeeeeeeeeee!" Then everyone move,bitchy gilaa ;)

haha Im awesomee ;)

tk lah , actually those guys were telling their other friends after I do the excuse me thing like "There's a woman,move it sistah " in their one way

Hmm,pretty gentle ;)
hahaha,tk boleh bla , nasib baik tk jauh sgt nk smpi pintu,like 2 seats je , but seriously I was like the only one who manage to get out,the rest idk what happen to em' . so Im the mangsa and the survivor. lol lol

Then I jalan laju gilaa, almost kena langgar twice =.= heading to klcc

Like Nightmareeeee, it was raining a lil , but my hand is thousand time shivering and cold then it should've been
mcm kena rogol. hahaha,bangang -.-

Bad/awesome experience

Then dh smpi klcc tuhh,around 1 1/2 later mama dh ajak balik,tp nk makan dulu

so we makan2, Bought my first lipstick . Yeaaah, I bought lipstick,for me. haha. The most natural/nude colour I can get.Silkygirl jee, bukannya pkai sgt pun buat nk mahal2, I look soo girlish+sweet. Not bcos the fact I pakai lipstick, tp the colour itself,mcm femine-nya saya. Hahaha
wanted the other colour,lg coklat nama Naked,tp mama suruh ambik the more pinkish colour; Pure

Cos she dont want me to be naked,duhh.haha

Then mama nk beli Big apple for people at home, I bought a giant donut pillow

idk whyy,I was 'influenced' by the "Price with purchase on 6 or 12 dount ; Rm9.90.Price on its own rm 22.90"
Lol , Tp bila fikir balik it suits meeee. I mean a donut,will forever remind me on how much I love cooking during my time THERE ;'(((

Holy F I talk a lot

I have issues on telling thing in a shorter form,seriously :)
I could really talk none stop

Tp I boleh jgk tk ckp langsung

ikut mood, :)
Ok byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ;))
might be having another 'lepak klcc tnggu mama hbs kerja-day'
this friday cos nak gi clinic Twin Tower Medical Centre.

susah payah pergi,sbb ubat kat situ biasanya power

*jaga standard KLCC tk boleh blaa gilaa

Cant wait for next jalan-jalan cari makan day of mine :)
Oh and klcc has change soooo much from my last visit,
which is somewhere sept i think

-Ok,ciao peoplee<3

First post for dec?oh my..

2011-12-06T01:57:00.000-08:00

Hm,biasanya time cuti I'll have tonss of blogpost
Tp this is my first post for this year's?
walaweyhh.
either nothing much happen or im-not-use to blogging anymore ;)
i'll say both , i think.
I choose to keep things to myself :)
So what happen sepanjang cuti yea?
Er...holiday we had so far, is balik kampung and last week we went to Perak.
no,not really to jalan2..just to lepak with Kakra.since her Uni is over there, and since i've never went there before..So ok la,they were having some ArchiDay. - means a day for/from the Architecture Faculty.
Yeah,she's taking archictecture. Exactly what she's been wanting all-this-while. Alhamdullilah,lucky her :)
here's some pictures from mah phongg

In the gallery sec. Awesome artwork. Gila bpk detail.I think that one is done by the part3 students

Here's their studio.Which is tempat diorg tido most of the nights.this course is only for those yg boleh tahan tk tido malam several days.Haha,betul.. Parah parah (In trggnu accent,lol)

The the idk whats its call. Tp ni masa prize giving

Ohh,we went to Kellie's Castle.Adalah some caslte masa zaman british dulu.Rasa mcm dlm cerita merlin.

And thats abah and kakra at our hotel . Masa dh nk check out..

Oh,I've started tuition already~
Tp,Chem , Phy and Sej jelaa.
maybe Add this wed..
Honestly, I feel like I need moreee
I tk study on my own at-all. So tutiton is reaaaaally important.
and im willing to go tuition,on my own.
Im the type of people yg (selama ni ) score sbb tuition je OK
(so from what I think, masuk sekolah yg better tk lah membantu mana)
I need to change from start

then then , Oh this hol is pretty filled with Harimau Muda~
Hmm,all bcos of sukan sea lah , then the olimpik qualification..
Im not a fan of football,Tp im quite a fan of the Malaysian team now..
After last year's AFF cup
Oh and I even bought myself a MsianTeam jersey masa kat Perak.For fun..
and the jersey's design is nicee

Its cuti right,so i make myself bake smthg at least once a week
Had Brownies,Caramel pudding and cookie, Semua benda simple,im not that good
CSI,CASTLE,HOW I ET YOUR MOTHER,NEW GIRL,SWITCHED AT BIRTH - list of fav tv shows for this month

er..what else,ohh I miss school a looooot.
two reason, I miss the people ; I miss the girls cos we spend 24hours together,gossips all around, gaduh2(typical asrama life) , and I miss the boys for their jokesss and their super direct opinions/advice in class. Hm,but I still hate em' in some way though.remember that..
and the other reason is ; I have to studyyyy.Next year tk sempaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat. Im like so stupid right now,i need to study more. But I cant study if im not in school or no tuition..
Geeez, im so..eager? nk study smthg.But i need to get out of house, ddk rmh mmg tk kan study ler..


Gambar pkul 2 pagi, malas nak senyum

Ohh, I bought new specss. Yeaaa
Not sure if its better or what,but this one is pretty big for me..
Hmph,tkpaa kooot

taking a few moment before leaving

2011-11-08T23:00:00.000-08:00

As (some) of you know, i was in school today. As in SBS,yeah.

sepatutnya balik smlm,but hihihihi,ponteng one day and stuffs~

so yeah , I DIDNT MISS THE DAMN REGRET THIS YEAAAAR!!!

oh, well depends lah if u see the 'damn regret' as the class party day or the 22nd oct.

So i guess the day went well.

what i mean is , i can met up with old friends, have fun and enjoy the moment W/O having regret afterward

That , to me is a freaking successful moment. Yeah,obviously YOU HAVE NO IDEA XD

I mean being there make me feel "I can do this.."
cos its like it feels good catching with my old friends but seriously there are thing i rather lose..
So its very very 'balance' one..

hee, oh yeah.
Imran were so sweet today. I mean i dont remember him being nice that way ;)))
he was like "Dah makan..?"
then is said "Naah, mana boleh makan (coz i ddnt pay afterall)"
then he gave he's. I mean, Aww ;'))
but they have lots of extra, so tkpe.

Then2 seeing Azrain make me saaaaaaaad :O
lol , more on that later lah. dnt feel like emo2 . haha

oh, seeing al arif jgk,tp tu reason lain..

then er..who else aa,idk.
oh, Nadia majid grew! like a lot taller then the last time i saw her.woah,OK.

oh yeah , some of the form 4's had the dance perfomance.

Were awesome, tp bersepah. But yeah , awesome lah..

so ok people.

Tinggal 6 days to go bfore my cuti 'panjang'
wee~, lets get it done.

Ahh, i DNT wanna think bout next year,shadaaaap

XD
bye lovesss, go check the picture from fb.

k, leaving for Mozac pulak..

Yay, 2 school for 1 day

Something Sometime

2011-10-29T07:57:00.000-07:00

Have you ever felt that feeling whenever you see someone, you freeze and your heart starts to beat so fast and you have to hold on to something so you wouldn’t fall? Sometimes when they talk to you, do you utter stupid words and end up embarrassing yourself? It’s not that you want it, but just the presence of that person makes your heart beat faster and slower at the same time. Would you be brave and admit your feelings? What if it’s simply not meant to be, do you give up? Or keep trying and end up with nothing? Well, that’s love. Its irony speaks, but you got to take risks to get answers. When you meet someone and you gradually fall in love with that person, try to express your love to her because every moment you wasted would be equal to tons of regret in the end. Don’t wait until it’s too late to tell someone how much you love, how much you care. Because when they are gone, no matter how loud you shout and cry they won’t hear you anymore.

The love you can’t have lasts the longest, feels the strongest and hurts the most. It’s so hard pretending to be friends with someone special when every time you look at that person it just hurts even more knowing that all you see is ultimately everything that you want but you can’t have. Isn’t it stupid when you say, “no, I don’t love that person anymore.” But still, when the memories are refresh and that person become visible again in your life. You’ll stare and say, “Damn it! Why can’t I forget you?” So each time I see you, I say to myself, “I moved on.” Each time you smile at me, I say to myself, “yeah, were just friends!” But every time you look at me, I end up saying, “Shit! It’s so hard to pretend!” It’s hard to love someone who is not serious enough. Time would give you chances to talk, chances to be together and chances to share. See how it hurts?! You only have chances, just chances.

A heartbreak isn’t as loud as a bomb exploding. Sometimes it can be as quiet as a feather falling and the most painful thing is no one really hears it except you. You can handle the pain that you feel and make others believe that you can move on. But you can never deny the truth to yourself that the person who failed and hurt you is still the person you’ll choose to love. I cried so many times because of a love lost and a love I never really had. I suffered pain worse than dying. But feelings change and there’s one lesson that everybody should learn in time…move on. You can’t finish a book without closing its chapters. If you want to move on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages. Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress. It’s a lifetime venture in which we are always learning, discovering and growing. The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go. We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more than we can love ourselves. Learn to appreciate the rainbow after cursing the rain. It’s just like loving again after experiencing pain. Loving someone can’t be proven with just the way you feel, the words you say or the things you give. If you’ve ignored yourself and sacrificed your own happiness for the one you love, you know what love means.

THIS THING OVER IS NOT MINE

BUT ITS EXACTLY WHAT IM TRYING TO SAYY.

EXACTLYYY.

espec 2nd paragraph. mygod.

Wish me luck!

Doakan aku dpt let him go

doakan aku boleh "handle" dia

doakan aku boleh survive with him around..'

LET HIM GO KNOW, OR NEVER.

-right,kau fikir senanggg? dh 3 bulan struggle.

Tk penah aku fall for someone TWICE.

he's a reaaal motherfuckhaaa [for making me fall for him TWICE]

Ok,i knooow you dont get a thang im talking about cos i dah lamaaaaaaaaa tk blog

so many update tk update..

yg pasti im so sick of being in love-yeah,sounds disgusting

tp yg pasti my last 3 months has beeen very much like "your love is my drug" situation

where it is "syok" but its wayyy better to let go

will post more later

God,kenapa lah kau wujud. whyyyyy?you're making me suffer

like have u guys ever experience ok, Er..you like this one person

Tp everytime this person talk to you kau akan jeling or maki2 inside coz like "Stop talking to me,dude. Get lost. Stop making me fall for you..!"

Ahhh,pelik kaaan ?

and i know you know it , kan babi?

. and im glad you take it well
you understand it well '; to remain silent and ignore whatever im saying

cos that is exactlyy how it should be.

*oh yeah , i call him babi &fucker ALOT. cos he's make me fall for him ! so im like sooo angry at him most of the time for,what else making me fall for him

his attitude is mmg teruk jugak , so i nver feel guilty.

dia jenis suka maki&ejek org la..

the best song that fits;

Selepas kau pergi-Laluna

Selepas kau pergi,
tinggallah disini kusendiri
Ku merasakan sesuatu,
yang t’lah hilang di dalam hidupku

Dalam lubuk hatimu,
ku yakin kau pun sebenarnya tak
inginkan lepas dariku,
tahukah kau kini ku terluka
Bantu aku, membencimu,
ku terlalu, mencintaimu,
dirimu begitu,
berarti untukku..

Kau telah mencinta,
dan dicintai kekasihmu,
ini tak adil bagiku,
hilanglah damba tinggallah hampa

Lupakan ku, dalam tidurmu,
yang pernah, mencintaimu
kau memang tercipta,
bukanlah untukku

Ahh,its super damn complicated (and very novel-ish+sweet bak kat kawan2 aku disana..)

well,all i know is its the last thing i want.

Dont feel like

heyoooo

2011-09-24T13:11:00.000-07:00

its 3.03 am and im awake!
org guna laptop kwn, blogging in the dark*thumbs up*
got some pic transfer to do
I Knoww its wayyyy too much to be updated.
so let just talk bout wats in my mind yeahh
Ok,lately(im gettin bored of that word)
Kl has been pretty sad/strange
school is as super-upside-down as always
and me has been/is getting more weird+lost+complicated+loner+unsettled+FAKE than ever
Hee,trying my best to stay "OK" through out this post..
means tk nk emo emo-dh fade up emo kat blogg

k, i was in KL last week,sempat dtg rumah MAISARA AZIZ/MAMAI/MASAI (for her open house)
Er..was pretty sad as there were not many sbs-ians. But at least jumpa la jgk Mai. cehh,haha
Ohh yeah, finally met tha Nik Guy. Just someone mai talks about a-lot last year. And he was actually kinda my friend back in stndr 6 in Dinamik tuition.Together with Zhira,and (i cant re-call but acc to nik, Fania pun.Ntah laa) I remember i had fuuuun back then,Despite nth kenapa but the students and teachers tk abis2 kenakan me and Nik. Like"Nazreen,where's Nik Haziq..is he's coming? Can u call him..? - thats the maths teacher. Likee apaaaa deyyyy =.="
And he was super poyo back then, like nmpk sgt kena paksa dtg..hahaha, but he's fine now..
*wth am i talking about him..? haha, just nk ckp less bout mozac and more of KL
Ezrin's open house is like 2 weeks ago, wasnt there ;((
Back in Mozac day after mai's.
Was in baaaad condition
i called it "Standard situation after balik KL"
All the regretss. =.= But i guess after few days dh ok lah
Okok, not gonna talk bout the regrets now,

Alright,er..we're having "Makan beradab/makan raya" next wed.
Thank god i got the camera this time..yeahh!
They had a perlantikan for the next year's rumah sukan's Ajk.
You know whats the best part is ?
We have like 10-15 girls in a batch-in one rumah sukan
So like at the end tinggal 2-3 je yg tkda jawatan
and er..im of it.haha, wanted to be bendahari super badly
but Trust Issues lahhh

and i guess my main"prob" this week is
There's this one guy,aku pernah accdntly minat him,after he had some incident. Pretty damn stupid. Yeah,just supersuper unexplainable. Anwy,er..i Suffered pretty bad nk stop minat him..like serious lah -susaaaaah.Serious,i really dont wanna minat him.Aku start ter-suka dia somewhere early July..
then by end of Aug I think i was completely over him.-0h well,thats what i thought

So minggu ni God-knows-why
Dia yg start kacau2/bising2 like hell.
(oh btw, guys can sini mmg sgt suka kacau pompuan.like everyday kena -.-)
ok,pendekkan citer. Feels so angry dia buat mcm tu,means i dnt want him to talk to me, tegur me, and i dont wanna see him at all..
its like "you're my drug case" - Like i want you but please get looooooost.
just telling cause agk pelik kalau compare dgn kat kl/sbs were we were soooo free nak minat anyone.
Heh, and i cant explain any single reason why i minat him or why i tk boleh minat him. NONE...wtvr

Ohh,next
kwn aku ni en, she's a Badri(means something like uztazah versi students)
She has been "chasing" me around (well,not that bad..but yeah)
Asking me of i wanna join her doing Usrah during her duty time(Usrah is the Islamic-lecture-moments btw, i know lots of u guys who doesnt kno what it is.hee,you people so bad ;D )
I was like "WTF?"
and bla bla chasing comes afteward..until a week alter she finally explain actually ada uztazah ni ask her to "rapat2 with me"
Ok,one thing you should is kat sini almost all the uztad/uztazah is slightly psycic. (some can even reads palms)
So i guess one of them "read" me.. Holy F
bodoh gilaa kan aku ni :PPP
Smpi skrg tk blh reject lg..what if the uztazah came up to me and says "Awk ni, org nk tlg awk berubah..awk boleh reject.."
Gaaaaaaaaaaaah,*im-not-in-the-mood-to-change, OK?? >.<
So tlg laaa, LATER K, LATER

I Realize the more "comfortable" i am here, the more i try to be myself so the more rules i'll obey ; more rebellious i become. Dont give a damn daaah. dh Fade up, like i got more issue to handle then being serabut just to care what to wear, if its "menutup aurat" enough..how to act; if im being "perempuan" enough
LIke Shut Up,Man.
im here to studyy..so let me.

Heh,did this 2 days ago..shut up laa,u have no idea

additional pic, ; My class. As u can see there's only 7 girls out of 31. this is during sat morning prep..

Dh lah suddenly feels so sleepy
er..more pic coming up later.
Ciao my babehh

DEAD AND GONE

2011-09-17T13:49:00.000-07:00

I GOT THOUSAND AND 1 THINGS TO SAY

But its 4.49am , im not that sleepy

but no lah gotta sleep soon

I MISS MY LIFE LIKE SHITT

I HATE MY CURRENT LIFE PRETTY BADLY

I'VE TOO MANY REGRET

I THINK I'VE CHANGED

EVERYTHING'S CHANGED

I'VE LOST MYSELF

KILL ME BABY

I WANNA RESTART ALL OVER AGAIN, TLG LA.

xoxo

=.="
>TALK LATERR..

SO SO SADDDD

oh god.

2011-08-13T12:00:00.000-07:00


Currently desperate for freedom

Taking a moment and thinking how much things have change for me for the past few months.Oh,its exactly 4 months already..

Hmm,it does change me. Give me all kind of lesson i canbt get back in sbs..

Jadi hari ni saya akan ckp pasal masalah ke nth berapa sy..

MENTALITY ISSUES

jyeah,and im focusing on the guy

cos they're the majorities

Im having culture shock for the past weekssss.

aku tk nk jumpa diorg

aku rasa macam nak tampar diorg kadang2

aku kadang2 harap aku masuk sekolah perempuan

aku harap aku tk pernah jumpa diorg pun

aku harap diorg orang lain;otak bdk kl skit

aku harap diorg tk perlu kuat mengumpat sgt

aku harap diorg lagi respect perasaan seseorg

aku rasa diorg terlalu menjaga sampai tk terjaga (tknk explain,smthg digusting)

aku harap diorg blh accept attitude aku dan bukannya depan baik,belakang ngumpat mcm taik

aku harap diorg tk se-ego ni

aku sgt sgt benci diorg

aku tak suka gilaaa dirorg

aku stress hidup dgn diorg

aku rasa diorg sgt menyusahkan hidup

aku rasa diorg tk tgk dunia betul2 lg

aku tk sbr nk lari dr diorg

aku nak diorg jadi open-minded skit

aku nak diorg biasa dgn orang2 mcm aku (sbb diluar sana diorg kena jugak )

aku nak bwak diorg keluar dari mindset

aku selalu fikir macam mana lah korang nk survive kat luar sana

aku kadang2 nk tolong korang jgk,

TAPI

aku tk boleh adjust semua tu

No matter how bad it is,i cant do anything.

I ain't strong enough.

Its not my battle

there's nothing i can do.

Aku kena survive untuk 14 bulan lagi dkt Mozac

like it or not.

Aku kena tahan semua ni untuk 14 bulan lagi

Sbb one day, kalau aku masuk U yg bukan kat area KL

inilah jugak masalah aku nanti

at least nanti aku dh blh tahan.

Walaupun aku gila psychology yang jugak dipanggil social studies

aku tk da hak untuk mintak diorg berubah.

aku tkda hak untuk buat apa pun

nak comment kat page batch aku pun aku tk blh.

bukannya diorg complain

tp for perspective sake

Aku benci hidup mcm ni

Setiap minggu ada "Intervention"(im talking bout how i met your mother's style)

mcm rehab kau tau

aku tak suka jadi orang yg asyik kena step back and tahan semua orang

semua benda aku buat salah

tk boleh kau biar aku hidup dgn tenang.

aku nk focus kat study

aku blh terima the fact aku tk kan jumpa korang lepas2 ni.

kalau ada alumni pun aku tk kan pergi kot , sbb yelah form 4 baru kot..

Tp, tolong lah bagi aku survive 14 bulan ni.

aku tk nak asyik risau nk fikir apa korang akan ckp

aku nk bebas

and yg penting aku bukan nak menyerlah dan menarik perhatian korang

aku -nk bebas .

aku tak nak ada limit

aku ok dgn pkai tudung 24/7

aku ok dgn sembahyang 5x sehari

aku ok pkai long sleeves all the time

aku ok tk boleh lipat tgn + conteng tgn

aku ok kena pkai stoking 24/7

aku ok dgn usrah every friday

tp satu benda aku tk boleh buat

nak jaga mulut korang.

nak kawal diri untuk tk jadi se-bebas yg aku "dh" jd di-mata korang

aku tk pernah cakap aku dtg untuk jd perempuan "mithali"

aku tk pernah mintak korang ubah aku jd baik

aku tk pernah mintak pun..

So tolong,tk guna tolong org yg tk nk.,

aku tau dan aku igt guru besar pernah personally bgtau aku.

4 org yg tk diterima Allah

aku tk igt yg lain,tp salah satunya "Orang yg menolak pertolongan orang lain"

Tp serious,tolong ah.

bukan sekarang.bukan macam ni,

aku pun tk kisah,so stop try nk ubah aku.

aku ada cara aku

aku ada pendirian aku

aku tau limit aku

aku bukan tulis semua ni atas harapan korang berubah

aku tau tk boleh adjust semua ni

aku tulis sbb i need to talk

and all i know , tkda orag aku boleh bercakap semua ni

semua misjudged

dan aku terlampau complicated untuk berkongsi masalah

aku selalu fikir "macam mana korang nak survive kat luar ni, kat universit nanti.kalau korang tk blh survive aku"

aku tk tau korang main2 ke apa. yg pasti benda ni sgt menganggu

so again,if ada org mozac baca ni

This is what i thinks.

a bit harsh..tp I-just-need-to-talk.

dah,esk aku kena jumpa korang lagi.

dan hari2 seterusnyaa..

Tp thats how life is.

you can never avoid the "What people thinks"

so,hate it or love.

This is my life in Mozac.

a life that seems to be dead.

Haih,teruknya hidup

life sucks either way..so let just continue living in either one of it and hoping something good's waiting.

if only head speaks

Ramadhan.

2011-08-06T05:51:00.000-07:00

Heyy,its 6th ramadhan already.

My ramadhan this year? Hm,pelik lah for sure.

tk pernah2 bukak puasa kat selain dari rumah.I mean,untuk keseluruhan bulan puasa

and this year, aku puasa kat asrama pulak.

satu tempat yg tk pernah langsung aku imagine aku akan masuk..

satu tempat yang aku takut..

satu tempat yang pernah menjadi aku punya worst nightmare..

satu tempat yang aku pernah sumpah aku tk nak masuk..

dan satu tempat yang aku pernah respect orang2 yang survive dia

Tp skrg,here i am..

Puasa bersama 668 orang yang lain

Berbuka bersama 668 orang yang lain

bersahur bersama 100+/- orang lain

Tapi aku ok. Aku sgt ok dlm bab ni

iaitu untuk tk merindu rumah

sbb tgk bdk2 lain en,mostly bdk baru ni la

mesti agak emo bila tiba masa berbuka..

heh,aku tak. aku happy

sbb its a different experience.

kena tunggu 10-20 minit lps azan baru blh makan..

yang aku tau one day (iaitu puasa tahun 2013)

aku akan rindu.

aku rasa aku tk rindu orang2 sgt,
aku lg akan rindu the routine la kot..

Ok,makanan dia er..ok no hal. Sedap. agak "grand"
Ayam berempah,nasi ayam dan pelbagai lagi..
lpas bukak puasa, gerak gi Magrib , Isyak dan Terawih.
diorg buat (8+3 rakaat)
so by 9.30 semua gi prep
11.30 lights off, pkul 4.30-5.30 bangun sahur
walaupun tk bnyk org sahur kat dewan makan,
aku selalu turun,tk biasa lagi lah ;)
Sahur pun ok, makan nasi lauk dgn fresh milk :D
ye,fresh milk.dan aritu corn flake pun ada
hahaha,lagi mewah dri kat rumah weyh..

Dan aku tk tau lah pulak kenapa
tapi kat sini,puasa lagi senang dari kakt rumah
maybe sbb tk perlu penat2 balk rumah dri sekolah
tk perlu tunggu teksi tgh panas
dan tk perlu masak ;))
kat sini lps balik sekolah free smpi bukak puasa
so itulah masa tidur kami :D
hehe,hidup puasa ni agak senang lenang.

Oh, kalau korang baca post aku sebelum,
there's something about this one guy right.
Hm,its all over now :))
yeay,dah berjaya.
in fact aku rasa agak geram dgn few stuffs psl dia
and that is antara yg main dia perasan gilaaaaaaaaaaa
Ya Allah, i mean Erghh...who the hell are you again?
Tp tkda lah gaduh,cant afford to gaduh with anyone here.
nanti the whole batch back up.
;)

Aku balik this time sbb kakak kedua ku,
Nardine Roslan
akan flyyy ke Indon untuk buat Med esok.
University Hasanudin.
So aa sbb tu la aku balik, nak bye-ye
Lets pray for her.She's the first yg study luar Malaysia
so lets pray she's not the only one :)

ok.bye
nak beli barang dan pack2..
Hm,ni je lah hidup aku untuk 2 tahun ni..
Aish, rabu ni exam
4 paper 1 hari. Gilaaaa

singgah sebentar

2011-07-31T11:34:00.000-07:00

ok, i just done packing. Esok tgh hari balik Melaka.
as you all can see, me no more an active blogger yaww.K,maybe never been.But still ;)
anywy,i've "converted" to writing diary now. cos you know cant on9 tat much and i have to "talk"
so,apalah lagi yg nk dicakapkan selain drpda psl MOZAC
so, ok. im doing fine.Im okey . Im doing good.
i realise my problem all this while is just I wasnt willing to let go
k,so skrg im ok with the asrama life and all. But there's one problem left ;
My academics!. Aishhh, my add and mod math is super bad.
I mean, no blame on the teacher at all.they're super good already.
but you know, those are the one yg memerlukan practice enn..
tp mcm tkda masa nk buat exercise tau tak! Prep hanya utk hmwrk.
ok,.tu satu. Plus pulak, idk why tp kan lately(since last 2 weeks)
i reaaaally dont feel like studying. Rasa dah sgt2 boring dgn study.
-_________________-"
Idk what to do like this. We'll see. I do feel im getting better day by day.ntah tgk lah result

K,we had sport day last tues.
so a week before that mmg gila bapaaaaak busy.
Cheer,cheer's props,Kawad,Kawad's props.
Err..every night stay up conduct cheer until 2.
then from thurs smpi tues tu kawad time prep mlm.
tp i drop out on sat night, cos you know i realize i CANT kawad.
like kat SBS dulu tk pernah pulak org complain psl my kawad (dkt PBSM)
so yeah,i sambung ajar cheer with the form 5's.(,i was the only form 4 perempuan yg tk masuk kawad)

You know why last week(the sport day's week)
is the most "ok" week for me.
Main reason dia sbb for the time aku involve and berjaya utk membusykan diri dgn benda yg bukan academics =/= HAHA.
2nd reason sbb aku involve/rapat dgn banyak orang. So mcm..best.I can do the pyschology experiment here and there . ok, thats good.
and last but not least
hehehe ;)
there's kinda of "guy" involve. hee,geddit geddit?
k, i pernah terfikir/terharap/terdoa. Kalau i like manage to minat somebody,i might like being here as well BUT i do say IF THAT IS THE BEST FOR ME..
and guess what,it happen.
And no, no happy happy about that
more like "Oh shit, i like you.damn"haha,serious dohh. its a very2 "Ter-suka" punya case tau..
ok , mcm ni.
aku tak pernah minat him or anything sampai lah aritu dia sakit.He 'almost' lost memory
ok, so it 'started' as me intrested in him cos you know i a-ddict(!) to Psychology like shit right.and lost memory is one of the illness we/they study. so mcm it was very intresting.the word is intresting.
so then comes Concern. I was very2 concern for his health. Tak tau la as a friend or as so-called his pyschologist.sumpah dohh,the first 2 days i feel like he has conquered my mind sepenuhnya..Jujur ckp,aku risau sikit.
smpi lah the 4th day bila dia dh start showing his normal attitude . (btw dia jenis yg kacau org all over, bising2 sana sini.,very very ZAFFEQ) masa tu , igt lagi. dia mcm tgh buli junior. and i was smiling like shit tgk dia mcm tu.
i remember thinking "oh god,he's back.He's fine.Alhamdulillah.." masa tu rasa mcm ntah lah, rasa "aman"
haha, gila en.k wait. not done..since tat day lah jugak aku nak on-the-spot mcm tk suka dia..But im not ven sure if dah berjaya ke tak..

and nak fall out of love is wayyyyy harder then nak fall in love. so F-M-L, people!
sumpah doh, i mean kalau kat sbs en. Bila aku suka seseorang, you know what we did.
We have fun out of it. We go mengedik all around skodeng sana sini. Even when tk suka sgt pun
minat sikit,tp nk have fun punya psl. Perghh
kat sini , bila suka org, sgt2 tension ye. mcm ITS A BIG NOOOO
gotta stop immediately.aduhai, so i realise how much i tk reti "handle" my own feeling
sbb like i said kat sbs,mcm tk 'syok' kalau tk mengedik pasal sesiapa2 dlm 1 tahun tk sahh.
k,and we all mengedik lg over dr apa yg kitaorg rasa.
you know, exageratted feeling.-ALL FOR FUN,baby . ALL FOR FUN
kat sini, perghhh. Boleh mati baii

and worst of all,im sure dia tau aku 'agk' minat dia all this while.
Tp that day 1hari sblm sport day.he's friend which is my dorm mate jugak.
Obvious gila gi bgtau him about this thing.
ya Allah, tu first time aku rasa bengang dgn bdk2 kat sini. I mean i always pegang prinsip "Im new" so its always like bertolak ansur and stuff. tp sumpah masa tu aku rasa nak tampar kepala dia smpi pecah kena dinding.like dia DAH tau bangang,and im "working" on it (means tgh try utk tk suka dia) so mcm dua2 pun ok..no akward moments at all.
tp bila dia ckp mcm tu en,aku mcm dh malu gila dgn the guy. *obviously
but im still trying to fix things up. I try to talk to him as much i could smpi aku anggp dia kawan
and aku tak-kan minat kawan sendiri.No way,never.
so aku dgn this guy,er ok ah kot. biar je laa, tkda pape.buat bodoh sudahh
(idk why, i ter-magine Shirene (from my old school). saying "jgn tipu diri lah syg..") Ahh, takda maknanya ni kena tipu jugak,
tp yg bdk perempuan ni, haish. Sumpah aku tk abis2 doakan dia kena this and that.but not directly lah. just mcm "Buatlah apa yg patut utk dia menyesal smpi bila2,ho-ho" i mean afterall its back 1 basic thing; Let the Go decide
and she has this look yg walaupun aku tk kenal dia at all (last time) i already hate her so much.
idk, cant explain. maybe god's telling me she's the one i should be aware of.
tehee
You know this song ; Sorry cant stop loving you and selepas kau pergi by LaLuna.
-YEAH,SOMETHING LIKE THAT. tp tk la over sgt. lagu tu lagi advanced lah

ok, kenapa saya post banyak sgt pasal dia ni, aish.banyak benda lah nk ckp.
semua dah ada kat dlam buku. sorry blogg,kau dh dilupakan.
Minggu depan may-be aku balik (septutnya tk blh) sbb my 2nd sister nak Fly gi Indon. Stud Medic. Universitas Hasanuddin,makasar. Hm,yeaa.Kalau dia berjaya. Ya Allah cant imagine how proud mama and abah is.

ok,gambar untuk tatapan umum. Kat fb bnyk lagi.

ini Qyla,org kl+melaka.
Dalam Dorm dilalah org aku plg rapat sbb dia jugalah the only one org 'mcm' aku
free hair and 'stuffs'
so she's pretty much my crime partner :D

Malam sblm sukan .
msg gmbr ni ; kalau tkda lelaki Boring bhaii.
dlm class lagi lah,omg.diorg lawak gila nk mati,tp tkda gmbr bdak2 class,so ni pun blh la.
Yg tgh baju putih ni bdk class aku,mata dia cantik gilaaaa.(tkpa aku mmg selalu ckp puji org kat sini.Tkda org syak pape pun)
. yg lain ni class2 awal2 ;)

Mesagge gmbr ; Saja nak tunjuk mcm mana rupa bdk2 f4 Mozac.hahaha,serious dohh


Msg gmbr ni ; Aish , yg ni. nth lah. dialah yg men-tensionkan hidupku disini. tp tkpe2 itulah the "Spice kehidupan".-Bak kate Cikgu Khairi. Kalau korang baca post diatas korang faham.. p.s : Braces & posing in pic tunjuk semua gigi,Bengong Bangang & Gila2 IS MY BIGGEST "WEAKNESS" when it comes to guys ; he got it all. so f**k gilaaa


Msg gmbr ni ; nak tunjuk perempuan2 Mozac. dan inilah ahli2 dorm aku.hee ye,semua f4.Im ok with them,tk "fully" rapat. Tp ok je. Except pompuan yg dlm post tadi tu =_________='

msg gmbr ni ; Bdk2 cheer rumah sukan aku. Alah,ignore the outfit. ni semua f1&f2.
Comel lah, i learn a-loooot from them (lessons for life kinda of thing) .
Love them already :)

SELAMAT MENYAMBUT BULAN RAMADHAN MY DEAR SBS-IANS AND MOZAC-IANS.

LOVE YOU BOTH \m/

HEE,CHILLAX

-jgn mencarut bulan ni

-jgn tido banyak sgt bulan ni

jgn kurang ajar bulan ni

-jgn bagi orang lain masalah bulan ni
-jgn smoke bulan ni

-jgn tgk 'blue' bulan ni

-jgn lupa belajar pulak bulan ni

-jgn emo emo ,puasa ni sng marah ye saya tau

BYE SAYANGGSSS :DDD

aku terjumpa benda kat page batch aku kat fb.

Doa tahan lapar;

allahumma,
baringsana...
baringsini......
wataktahan,
wamaumatie.....
walihat jam,
masihlamalagi.....
takdanasi,
watibaimaggie.....
esoklusa,
wakasiganti.....

jgn marah,lawak puasa je..

getting serious

2011-06-16T23:02:00.000-07:00

Starting 2nd sem's school session,i've been having quite a "mental+emotion breakdown"- thats what the counselor said eh,
So , i've been in and out the caunselling room for like 3 time already.
i told her i reaaaaally reaaaaaaally dont want this anymore,
*as expected, she responded "try dulu2.and so on.
Until during my last session, i was reaally getting serious about this
like "i've done trying"
Its a lot to gamble,hell yeah.
and a lot of procedures too..
and can take up to months!
its all bcos SBP semua dh di-freezekan.Means no people blh keluar.
Kalau nk , kena jumpa people from few diff department
got losts of "halangan " too!
first i have to make the pengetua approve my decision,(will be having an interview)
then i have to make the SBP punya department at the govt, to approve
theni have to make the bahagian sekolah approve my decision to shift back to sbs.- Which is also pretty damn "impossible"
and when im back in sbs, i'll be "menyusahkan" all the teachers yg incharge.
then me myself will be facing problems nk catch up with sbs's study.

So, that is why im pretty much dah gila right now.
Sumpah,every night tido around 1 smthg sbb well,tk blh tido
then kat sekolah mengantuk gila bapak, smpi belajar apa2 tk guna..
Then during prep malam,where we are suppose to s-t-u-d-y.
i cant! cos i got tons of hmwrk to do,
and trust i didnt do any, since the last 3 days.
oh well, that is like 3 weeks punya hmwrk in normal school ok.

And i dnt like going counselling! aku tk suka org "dig" smthg out of me.
But , i cant afford to handle this alone, i got no one to talk to,
talking to mama is kinda big no. (so gotta,fake and smile all the time with the family)
Until this moments where i cant handle it alone anymore
like last week,i really tried to talk to them but they were just like "Ok,tukar topic" -damn i wish i tell that the my counselor,suruh marah diorg.Hohoho,so meaan.
i wish on the day my parent dtg jumpa pengetua,the counselor marah mama&abah sikit. Bg diorg rasa regret a lil bit, sikit je la,Cos obviously they didnt do much,its my big fat fault. (!!)
so you know, its too late to get someone's help.
im sick of these thing. (this is where it usually ends with-I wanna dia..NOW!)
but yeah wtvr,sounds so goddamn sinned :)
Its hard.
Its hard to stay, and its hard to leave.
the counselor's planning to bring me see the penolong kanan to "Get a lil advise"
but tolong laa, i GOT-NO-MOOD for that

I cant find a sorry reason nk bgtau guru besar , Cos i have no goddamn idea how to tell "HUMAN" about my problem. aku reti bgtau masalah kat blog je
sbb tu bila gi counselling, all i can answer is stuffs like "Nth laa." or "nth,ye kot" , and as the reason "nth,sy tk suka,sy tk nk ddk sini" -I mean, look at that sentence. Its wayyyyyyyyyyy more than "tk suka"
so im like preparing for my so-called interview with the guru besar now.
Which also means, the whole week im here
30% just aku sedar of wats happening.The rest im off somewhere else,
So im wasting time ddk sini (utk scnd sem) sbb tk masuk apa pun..

Okeeey,im pretty much dying over here,(wish i already am,obviously)
and i'll die if i stay here much longer.
so , well i dont what to say.
im super busy,tons of hmwrk.But all im doing is what else , *waiting to die*

and the form4's will be having kursus sembelihan this 3pm.
anthr 1 hour, yess sembelihan ayam
yeaaay,doakan lah ada org ter-sembelih aku ye
tak tau lg peremmpuan sembelih ke tk, tgk lah dulu
and just found out earlier,the tv3 s going to be here. Hell no, i dnt wanna be in
unless i die of course.
ok,ciao, no I dont love you
:))

kan aku kata aku tk mental tk normal,jgn layan.

More and more of Mozac

2011-06-09T11:22:00.000-07:00

im pretty serious/confirm nk keluar.
but i dnt know how to tell my parent.
everytime try nk ckp. diorg mesti mcm"yelah..yelah"-Typical berpenggang teguh pd prinsip "Mula2 je , lama2 ok lah"
I mean tolong la, i've been in any major problem before.Seriously,
hidup aku sgt tenang,peace in chios.Exactly :)

Aku rasa/sedar yg aku tkda "positif" mind.
You know,i should've "bersabar" with everything. and accept people
dah la , aku ni sgt sgt sgt tk reti bergaul. Sjk kecik! tgk la kat sbs pun, time koko mmg **** gila,(haa,you sure know what i mean)

My first week of school were ; the LONGEST week of my life. My first weekend, diorg ada "pancadelima" some sorta their anual concert. So mmg aku TAK tau nk buat apa langsung
Soalan important ; Did i cried?
- Ok bak kata maymun, Tk logic org masuk asrama tak-nangis at first. (i Responded; Naaaah)
So jyeah,i did
Except(!) org layan , mostly or maybe everyone. i dnt know..
Nangis sbb HOMESICK
(As Expected) Aku TAK HOMESICK. I dnt know, i think major factor is Im not the type who tells "Evrything" kat family. mmg mostly my family mcm tu. idk why la en
I Missed home,a lot.
But not really the people in it.
More like, the rutin(!) and my room, my computer and stuffs.
senang citer, i cried because regret gila gila
like " WTF,Why am i here? Asal aku bodoh sgt? I seriously wasnt thinking wisely and were too focusing on "Making mama proud.." bodoh je.
i Should have think of myself at first place.

Mama dia told me "fikir betul2,kalau setakat nk impress org.baik jgn masuk"
But you know,first for me lah eh, Mama's advice doesnt help MOST OF TIME
She's complicated too.Like me/us. She the type yg "fikir lain,ckp lain"
and 2nd reason i was just toooooooooooo excited "nak try" sekolah lain/baru
sejak kecik sekolah sbs,tk pernah experience sekolah lain.
But like i said, i wasnt that wise.

Tapi mungkin jgk at this moment,blogging this thing out, ni yg tk "fikir masak2"

Reason aku nk keluar gila;
- I dont really have friend there ,(sbs pun,tp kat sana at least it ends when balik rumah. you know what i mean) I mean, tk tau kenapa kat sana tkda org "gila-gila" langsung. Oh wait, ada satu. tp tk benda nk ckp pulak.Everyone just seems to be either "matured" or "alim". except the junior lah even mama said Im becoming who i was back in primary school ; Tk nk ckp dgn org

-Its supeeeeeeeeeeeeer tiring. Bak kata Nadia Majid kat blog dia, "Kalau tk mkn lunch,mmg hbs lesu gila" Exactly true. And im not sure why, but even if i manage to tido petang bout 1 hour, then mlm tido pkul 11,bangun pkul 5.45. Still mengantuk gila babi. Even masa tgh ari,bila panas. which is like everyday, aku akan peninggggggg sgt2. like damn, i've never experience such thing before And and tk pernah mkn 6 kali sehari ! kat rumah mkn kat sekolah 1 kali , kat rmh 1kali. Thats it. 2 major meal.
they serve like 3 major meal, and 3 light meals.

- I cant seems to get over my old rutin;-
Tuitions, TV[AFC , SWR , AXN,HALLMARK/VIVA , TLC.] INTERNET [FB,ALL THESE GADGETS WEBSITE] , I regret i "dedicate" myself too much towards those thing :( - oh important advice for the form 3's ; jgn busykan diri dgn benda2 mcm ni.serious.Cos bila dh tk da. kau mcm dh separuh mati

-I hateeee the "alim2 advice" there.
Strictly NO ;-
-baju ketat, slightly short sleeve , tudung singkat, lipat lengan sikit pun tk boleh , makan tk blh menghadap lelaki. perempuan tk boleh "menyerlah sgt" like jd ketua for anything".Lelaki kan ketua", kalau dlm kelas ddk sebelah lelaki semua org akan kecoh2 , tak boleh gelak over over (ya allah, ni geram-.-) and tons to go. Ni aku stress side effect punya issue

- Sidang Ridaksi ? :'(

Oh god , sumpah ni aku sgt sgt sgt regret. This is one of the major factor.

Haih,i become more stress when few days ago aku terjumpa mag last year. Since then i've been triple nk pindah sbs. I really had a gooood place there =.="

- Final reason yg mcm "mengukuhkan" lagi all my thoughts is

Fee dia mahaaaaaal.Aku dpt list berapa kena bayar a day before cuti. And at that moment i mcm dh , confirm blah. No,actually tk lah mahal sgt.dah kira aritu, 1 tahun 830. Murah what? expenses daily kat rumah lg mahal. kalau mrsm lagi lah, 1000+ wehh

But since im pretty money concern. and i DNT want my dad to pay for that..

im DONE

God give me Mercy

Im Done here.

my mental dh blocked.

Nothing else can be done.

me as a soon to be psychologist saying that

and the counselor said so ,

So again,GOD GIVE ME MERCY

that word stuck in my since day 1 there

Oh yeah, one more thing.
Im at this situation where i had to decide nk stay ke tk for lke 2 months already because(!)
- My parent once said "Try je la dulu, kalau tk nk keluar je la"
and somehow, i take their word TOOOOOOOOOOO serious
and end up , dok fikir nk keluar ke tak since the begging until nak
counselor pun ckp aku mcm asyik judge benda/
hell yeah i am !
so , if you have kids one day, or maybe ur adik nk masuk asrama
JGN BAGI DIA ADVICE MCM TU.
Boleh jd gilaaa

HOME SWEET HOME?

2011-05-31T07:17:00.000-07:00

YAWWWWWWWWSSSSSSSSS

Oh wow , im home.

feels so weird =.=

been a month and 3 days since the last time i was home.

and been a month a 3 weeks since the day i officialy leave home for boarding school which is MOZ@C, in melaka

2 hours drive from home.

a month and 3 weeks

thats makes roughly is about 49 days.

49 days of...?

Blerghh..swear to god. I DONT WANNA B THERE ANYMORE DAY MINUTE !

erghh..damn lah.

its a mistake from the beggining.

i heard of people saying "Kalau tk betul2 nk , jgn masuk"

but somehow the moment i i agreed to go for this, i swear i didnt think much

oh well, i dpt letter on thursday.

i hand in the agreement letter on friday

by sat & sun i was already busy packing up

and by mon & tue ; i had all the official document settled.

So i really didnt think of this wisely

the moment i was deciding was also the moment i had to pack my stuffs

so obivously i didnt had any "mental preparation" of all the What-if? stuffs

so as the result , pergi sana bnyk "culture shock'

my next prob is as some of you know ; Im sucks at making friends,right? so like every single person yg pernah masuk asrama punya comment : Asrama ni , kena pandai buat group of friends lah.Baru best kalau tk..boring lah.

see what i am talking about ?so i bnyk kwn dgn my dormates&classmates je.

amd luckily some if my doormates are my classmates too.

and i soooo the type yg kwn sikit tp sgt "bernilai"

haha , omg *blushblush*

then , what else? ohh..omg , seriosly im pretty ok with the rutin but gaahhh. no prob with the packness but my body somehow cant take it.

cehh,,over je. ahaha. but like seriously penat gilaaaa =.=

im not the type who can handle being tired. staying up at night

i dont like being tired ! - so i can never be a Doctor or an Architect

the seniors,

oh well , kat asrama (any asrama) mesti kuat gila the senior&junior thing right.

nasib baik masuk masa form4. kalau tk , hmm,lg susahh weyh

kena bg salam everytime jumpa senior and panggil diorg "kak"

biasa la tu,

though kinda weird 1 tahun je beza pun nk panggil kak

but , no big deal actually. Biasa lah tu kat asrama

then , the alim alim things

hehe , biasa lah. i'll have this prob every i go

but thankgod the badri/badar (its like a mini uztazah lah in case you guys never heard of them)

aren't that *you know what i mean* haha - Kalau kau fhm , baguss

the worst is kena pkai stoking all the time,tk blh lipat bju kurung and *yg selalu kena,hahaha* No baju ketat or anything yg nmpk shape badan

the teachers however are very flexible

tk kisah on what happen at asrama, as long as hmwrk siap

tp warden kisah lah.

But just , you know melaka is known for their "bahasa kasar.." so yeah , kena layan je their words tu.

hee , and agak "cool" lah jugak en tgk..haha :)

So conclusion is !

I DNT KNOW IF I SHOULD LEAVE OR NOT!

from the day i enter mozac,tk hbs2 fikir nk balik ke tak

sickening gila tau tak! Ya Allah haih..

either one pun i'll have regrets ;'(

my life is already ruined , so skrg ni nk fix it a bit je

and at this point i always thought of the word from a american idol judge ; If it aint runied, dont dare fixing it.

Gahh , should of learn that

but then ada jugak ayat : There will be no change , if you dont ( means , you will get same result if you do it the same way lah )

ok ok , im still deciding..

Wassup wassup now :)

2011-05-14T03:02:00.000-07:00

Yaaaawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww !
Hihi , as you'all now im like 130 km away YOU *pointing finger*
Got myself into Sekolah Sains Muzaffar Syah , Ayer keroh melaka.
Gahh , hows school/life/me ?

First thing you should know is ;-
Its a effinggg packed day here. Like damn !.
The school
-sekolah ni ada 600 lebih orang (je)
-ratio lelaki to perempuan is like 3:1 .
-No jokes , like in my class ada 32 org , ada 7 perempuan.
-Alah , the world/malaysia tgh nak melahirkan lg ramai org lelaki masuk Uni, Faham ?
-1 dorm ada 20 org , double deck.dorm dia ikut rumah sukan. as in 1 floor satu rumah , so semua org dlm dorm sama rumah sukan. (im GREEN ; Syahbandar)
-I like the Lab a loooot. Classic gila
-Outing selang seli perempuan-lelaki. Tp perempuan jrg keluar sbb kena naik bukit gila tinggi.
1 form ada 5 class.1 class around 30/31.
sekolah ni mmg kat tgh2 bandar gila. "a minute from everything" Cuma leceh kena turun/naik bukit nk keluar pagar around 1 km.
-we eat 6 times a day. But i normally skip dinner and minum petang
-Oh , kat sini banyaaaaaak gila monyet. Sekolah atas bukit wat , diorg selalu curik makanan.

the rutin?
5.30-6.15 : Bangun , mandi and breakfast
7.10- Pegi sekolah
7.40 - Class starts.
10,.50 - rehat
2.30- Balik dorm for lunch and zohor.
3.30-4.45 - Ada class *with teacher*
4.45-5.30 - Rehat2 , minum petang and asar
5.30-6.00/30 - Riadah ; means kena kosongkan asrama. Buat lah apa2 nk kat luar. No girls really "riadah" selalunya duduk kat "tebing" tgk view.
6.30-7.30 ; mandi, siap2 for magrib
8.30- Isyak,
9.05-Prep malam
10.45-Habis prep , minum malam
12.00-Tidoo.

Saturay
8.00- 12 ; Prep
12-9.30 ; Free + sembahyang
9.30 - Kalau tkda exam , ada "Tayangan " byr 50 sen. Last time i tgk cerita Cun.

Sunday
-FREE ALL DAY-
9.00 - Prep

Wats the pros and cons?
Pros ;
Ohh , the teachers/ education lahhh. Sooo good*i think.
The the er..experience/preparation . So dekat U nanti senangg..
The "perspective"
The proudness of Mama & abah .Heh
The "Closer to god thing"
The "reunion" i'll be having when we reached 30 or 40...
The tk payah balik naik taxi thing..
I can take 10 subject; Additional : account .So yeah , im taking 10 subject for SPM. Biasiswa petronas for accounting :O
Cons :
Gahh , the time of my life i spent here :(
- The i cant do that. i cant do this (religiously and School's rules)
- The i cant do this , i cant do that ( like baking! , watching AFC , Gadgets surveying online , etc)
- The tirednessssssssssss - Wahh , im half dead all-the-time here. Im too tired to layan people also. when im tired , me no talk a word !
- No tuition mahh , aiyahh. This idk lah.
- The money spend / will be spending
- Cant be the mag photographer ! Ya Allah , this i regret so much

Things im missing
- Homeee ; My katil , me red langsir. *i dnt know why i visualise that* , my kitchen *TO BAKE!* and my computer * to freely survey gadgets update* , Tv *MASTERCHEF! 3000X CURSE FOR THIS.*
-Tuition life. I had a pretty solid yet lose life- mcm napthalene.hahaha. anywy , yeah. i pergi sekolah , balik tido,on9 whatsoever. mlm tuition.Ohh ;(
-I miss things like Tesco , kereta mama. SEKOLAH , Axis atrium.
- Oh yeah , this is sooo not an issue tp that day ONCE i miss pegi klcc dgn acim while tunggu mama habis kerja , pergi skodeng si mamat bisou cupcake.Haha , acim pun layan. Padahal we all know what happen en.
Eh , my "kedai wajib" since 2008 at klcc is the shop opposite to tgv. So i nk pegi kedai tu je..hahahaha. Best gilaa, padahal dia dh sedar banyak kali je. The closest "encounter" we did were er.. I buat peace sign. then dia buat balik and smile. haha , ok fine techinicly i miss gedik-gedik about boys ; Soooo cant do that here, obviously.

The conclusion
Erghh..im trying to be as wise a possible to decide nak stay ke tak. Even i've decide not to.Still ada possibilities i cant go in back , in case dah full or anything.
Serious , i like it here through out the morning. Especially saturday morning listening to mix fm through mp3.
Tp petang2 weekdays lah sgt menduga my desicion.haha. Ntah lah , kita tgk lah mcm.
Tp kalau i betul2 decide nak dtg balik sbs , I got biggggggggggggggg sorry for mama and abah. For life punya hutang *hanging*
went for counselling that day , dia remind "Jangan compare sini dgn rumah , cos obviously you'll be choosing home.Everyone will ... "

Call me belagak or wtvr. Bcos im in the mood to :P. haha , jk jk

2011-03-18T10:24:00.000-07:00

Woo , lama tk blog. :)

er..fast fast review of all ya

- Weee , new handphone ! :D

Sony Xperia X8.

Bought for 630.*after tawar-tawar.

400 parent, 230 me.

Pmr gift. :D

currently using 2Gb memory card. Will upgrade later.

Er..Android phone.

-means i have use almost 3/4 of the memory for the apps & games.

the pros ; Idk , a lot lah

the cons ; Battery cepat habis * tp agak standard for android..Camera tk cun sgt..

I cant really choose between this or S.E Hazel;-

Yg ni design lawaaaa , camera lg lawaaa. Tp harga sama. So i choose X8 instead.

oh and my sis bought X8 too. But the white one.
Hmm, not sure how do i feel bout that. Lantaklah

- Er..oh magazine.
oooook. Im in. Mag Editor 2011. as a photographer.*derzz
honestly , i was more interested to be in , last yearr.
Somewhere August to the end of school. Every single second regret tak masukk. HOMAIGOD.
but this year , very very mini tiny part of me yg nk. Hmm , no specific reason. But er..maybe smthng got to do with the cam i use :(
Or because i dah 'experience' it last year , so not that intrested anymore.
But its ok. This is fine.
I'll still do my job ! To the max.
plus ; there's 4 people in the photo sec and im the only form 4 s, the rest all form 5. So I'll be sooo happily conquering my department's assignment at the end of school. Cos gerak gempur and stuff yawww :P

who else ?
Mai , Arif and Zee - Graphic
John - Fund
Ez & Jannah - Sport
me - Photo.

Tu je yg kitaorg rapat , dak2 form 4.

pk1 results

2011-02-23T05:23:00.000-08:00

I sumpah malas nak blogging lately.

Been busy i guess..

so im gonna make this one quickk and easy :)

Results:-

-Math ; 60

- physics ; 56

- Bio ; 50

- chemistry ; 70

- add maths ; 30 (!)

- bi ; 77
-Sej ; 54
-Bm ; 62

Dah , yg lain belum dpt.

So yg palinggggg frustrating is Chemistry !!

my oh my , i seriously expect higheeeeeer. Bodoh betul lah -.-

Pretty suprised with Physic , really thought im gonna fail

Pretty down for Bm.Expecting higher.like 70 plus at least

So..GERAM with Add maths. Sooooooooooo many careless mistake weh.

Omg , kalau plus all those careless mistake and assuming the rest is correct. I akan dapat 64 !

Like hell man , i mean it wasnt hard as in tak boleh buat . Just was rushing tk cukup masa. Simultaneous kan panjang gilaa , so thats why careless. oh god >.<

so tgh tunggu bm , sej , and agamaa

Omg , really think im gonna fail Sej and Agama.

agaama seriously , i hentam like 90 %. *and the 10& goes for the jawi to rumi convert.

i tk baca langsung and we didnt study at all except chap 1 for hadis or wat ah..

and sej . Fuihh , got 17 / 30 for objective. So quite a big chance yaa?

Alaah , i CANT fail 3 sub !

wtf , thats like record breaking !

And i've been "buang my masa"
with handphone surveying
Planning to buy a new one, for the pmr gift :)
Currently so stuck with Blackberry Pearl 8220 flip phone.

Thats the one.
It cost like 400 i think , pretty cheap for a BB ya?
Well , i dnt like the stndr bb. so bigggyhh
haha , tp bb javelin / storm is in the list. I dnt know why
haha

school review (?)

2011-01-14T08:40:00.000-08:00

Aaaaa , form 4 daa
Tehee :D

Class
so im in 4Beringin.
my class ada bnyk lelaki . Never been in that kind of class
like 15 guys in it. And lg bnyk nons la
I sat beside Yuet Ee . Second row , middle on the left.
Ooh yeaah , depan gilaa.
Tkpa tu lah bagus :)

Subjects
My favourite teacher, yg pro2 deyy ! ;- Chemistry , Modern Maths , Bm and Sejarah

My least i think :- Bio kot. I dnt hate bio , before this . Im kinda interested in it at the first place. But , naah

Yg lain2 ;
Add maths : i think so far , i can understand slightly better compare to others .Cos some of them doesnt even know the basic algebra and stuff. I dnt know why , i get angry for that. HAHAHA
Physics : Oooh , i had been always love physics. I mean before learning the subs itself lah. Im excited to learn moreee. Now to early to decide
Chems ; Oh wow , thought chem would be my least fav out of add maths , chem ,bio and physics. But after all it wasnt so bad. maybe cos i have goood teacher or it is still toooooooo basic too hate. haha

Oh , im glad my teachers bukan jenis yg kasi bnyk gila homework. Phew
Well , of course i dnt love "all" of my teachers . But yeah , generally pretty satisfied. Except that one important subject in pure sc . Haish bengang gilaa -.- tolong lah tukar , IM BEGGING !

Koko
Ok , lets see
Unit beruniform ; Pbsm la
Club : Interact club- Jadi Sergent at arms. Cool gila nama dia eh
Sport ; Petanque

so i only have 1 jawatan so far :(
i want more ! haha
just for the sake of the sijil2

Random
Im going to join Sidang Ridaksi this year .
Photographer lah , apa lagi
Kalau tk boleh pun , i'll be editor je la
reasons ? ;-
- Minat lah
- Sijil2; Universities kinda of think
- Er..ok the reason how i started nk join since last year la en , last year mcm tkda org nk ambik gambar sgt..so i thought baiklah kasi org yg betul2 akan buat kerja * like me !* haha

SBP
*gasp*
Err..
i applied quite a lot
so kinda big chance im in
There's
- Sains selangor Kuala Selangor - I want this practicly.Tk wajib pakai tudung. Muahahaha
- Mrsm
- Seri puteri
- Sekolah tun fatimah, Johor

Results is out tomorow . But i dnt think dpt *yet
so if tk dpt we are going to Re-Applied
we means me and mummyh. So bersungguh2 one and i've been psychoed that way -.-
Kalau dpt..OMG TK NK FIKIR PUN
bnyk sggggt benda nak di runsingkan.
im very2 50;50 right now
Very like "dpt masuk..tk dpt sudah"
The only thing yg attracts me for sbp is Better chance getting in the Universities
and maybe better educations
The one stopping me is Damn , pindah sekolah . Susah lah
nak start cari kawan , nak start rapat gan org. Im pretty stastic enough in my school right now
I wanna be the photographer.
You'll be suprise when i say thats the main thing stopping me right now :)
and money wise ! Aiyoo , kena beli buku2 lain. Barang2 asrama ; bedsheet and stuff
you know how much i hate spending money.
and a bit negative thoughts
- My kaki ! what if i cari gaduh with someone then she go..Hmm , nvm lah
sapa faham, faham lah
haha

Something short and easy

2010-12-31T19:13:00.000-08:00

HAPPYYYY NEW YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAR , GUYS !

Happy 2011.

Happy to-be a sweet sixteen , friends.

Ok , so wishes?

-I wanna be a lot more rational at all time.

- I wanna be in-control of myself / be able to speak out <-- big deal -________-"

- I wanna control my money a lot better

- I want to be more 'friend-ly' *geddit?

- I'll try to be slightly optimistic.

-AMIN-

p.s : At this point , i seriously nk smthg to see the future.

like What school im gonna be in, whats my spm result.

Hee :D

Because it is a have to post post :)

2010-12-26T09:14:00.000-08:00

pmr result day
I was excited for the day cos its been to long..
and i really just want to know. Not that i was confident or anything..I was not . Really
so here's the thing. My target was between 3/4 A's. Yeah , Reaaally low.
i mean , almost everyone target straight A. ikut your standard lah right.
but maybe that could be just a helpful mindset in some way
whatever.

So , like Cik suzira msg.Benda tu start pukul 10. But based on my experience( with the sisters')
it usually happens like an hour after the planned schedule. so i bertolak dari rumah around 10.15
and by the time i get there , it was already started *obviously
Masa otw , yuet Ee did sms saying "fuck you , you got straight A..."
and i replied "Yeah wtvr..Eh , dnt tell me anything. im otw.."

Then by the time i was just stepping in , cutting ques , those scared giggles with friends. Al arif , yeap.
he was the first one to goes like "Ee..budak straight A.." and i just thought Omg, yuet Ee pun ckp. Tk kan diorg tipu en..But still mcm lantaklah..Even after John, fatin and i cant remember who else says the same.
so i was kinda of prepared when it was my turn untuk ambik slip.
cik.suzie was like 'Hah , nazreen..hm *synical smile*. Jap , mana slip awk ni..?"
She even tried to look at each class.

Then my mum nk gi tegur Pn.Nafisah kat ats stage.Since she know her
Pn.Nafisah : ank dpt berapa ?
mama : Tk tau lah , cikgu dia tgh cari
pn. : Aik, apa nama dia meh saya check. Yg ni yg straight A ni..

And Walaaah , there goes my slip..
so mama cries of joy and end up jumping from the stage. And slipped.Yeaaap *literally*
and smpai skrg sakit kaki .hehe
hugies going on.
And i look at cikgu suzie she was laughing. (oh well , after that she told me on fb . She was like saja2 nk buat panic.homaigod)

I was pretty feeling less sbb it felt sooo wrong !
i mean gila , aku dpt straight A. tk logic gilaaaa
i target 4 ! or max 6 yg plg2 possible lah tu
and lgpun i was like "pmr je baru.."
Everyone was like naz, kau dpt berapa?
Straight.." "*gasp*..
yeah , jahat gila. haha , tk lah.
and my fav so-called quotes for the day was from pn normala.
my mum was like "terima kasih lah ...blahblah"
and she was like 'Aa , itulah. saya pun tk sangka. Kerja ambik gmbr jee dia ni sorang.."
For a while , i was stunned . i mean , mana dia tau o.0

And sayang je , kalau tk boleh naik stage ambik slip.
I mean that is quite a feeling there , baby
my cousins and aunt were there too.
I ada cousin yg from 3 jgk. 2 actually. Satu cousin satu cousins my mum. and surprisingly
tiga2 dpt straight A. cool eh
haha ,oh ok back to this thing
abah siap ckp "Awin ckp tk dpt straight A, abah tk bwk pun camera.."
but i did ! so did. my cousin's . maybe tmrow i upload lah

ok , 2 common question
Am i going to boarding school?
- Nope. not sure. maybe .whatever. I never applied for anything so naah , and im not sure if i want to. if possible i want it to be daily school je , bukan asrama.
But im not going because i have job next year , man!
i dnt mind in terms of "missing friends.." coz i never really does..HAHA
So right now , more like No.
parent nk ssp or tun fatimah. *geleng-geleng*
my parent tk paksa at all . Thankgod

What do i get from my parent as a gift?
I have noooo idea. We never talk about what im getting cos there's no way im gonna get straight A *before
. But im trying for a camera. tp not really 100% sure if i want it.
cos , kalau i pindah sekolah. im not gonna get a cam. cos i need a cam to be the school's mag photographer.I mean , thats a hugee sacrifies there,man. Cam for a..job? ;|
Hm..and the one yg make me having a second thought is... i need to pay like a half of the price.(=600/700)
yeah , no ever said that. But thats the way we are. At least , kena byr skit. I NEED TO PAY FOR MY OWN GIFT. HAHA*sarcastic* and no way my parent akan byr .
PMR JE KOT. buat apa lebih2..

I planned my blog post while the rest were crying*literally

2010-12-16T08:33:00.000-08:00

Hmm *grateful*

Haiyakk *a lil kung-fu intro*
Ok , in case u havent heard. i went to a camp last weekend. It was just for a night,at Hulu Langat.
dari pagi sabtu smpi ptg ahad. dah lah mlm before camp tu gi tgk Narnia. pkul 12 lebih baru balik.
Under Petronas. as in for anak2 staff petronas. my mum work here so yeah..

Saturday
Bangun mcm nk gi sekolah . Had a quite long journey ahead . Smpi pkul 8.30 just nice for daftar and all.
After berkumpul tunggu org kat dewan ,and bahagi group. Msuk bilik/dorm. It was a double deck built in solid bed. Was pretty good for a camp. Then we go straight to JUNGLE TREKKING or like the facilitator called it "jung-le tre-chinng."
Ok so jungle trekking was epiccccc ! sumpah dia punya trek mcm challenging gila. Ada kena slide means mmg kena total duduk atas tu 3 kali. Masuk keluar sungai . and mcm2 lah. Incld. pacat.

Then smpi sungai . I was the first one to arrive cos i was among the first who started it. Baru masuk sungai 1 step dah terjatuh direct ats batu. Dha satu lmbam.Its purple yaww. haha anyway.
We had to cook lunch. Tp diorg provide sardin ,nasi and telur. So msk2 lah guna that thing askar guna . That square grey thing ; mesin and solid fuel. Had to eat dlm group atas plastik smph yg hitam tu , tp mmg brand new lah . Disgusting. I know. Wtvr. its the Trill .haha

Then we stop for prayers . We had to sembahyang ats rumput with NO telekung.Just tudung and long sleeve.
Some sorta of proof "we can still sembahyang" in the jungle. Then turun sungai balik for a group activity .
Had to terapungkan jarum peniti atas air.My group were the 4th. we shouted all the way with a lil omg omg going on. Then head back to our campsirte. Tp lalu shortcut. Thankgod. here's the thing. MY SHOES WERE LIKE GOING TO BLOW OFF SOOOOON. Tapak dia tercabut.

So smpai campsite tu we dah minum petang. Everytime makan time ada org akan baca doa and and ada sorta of pantun afterward " Jemput makan tuan , jemput makan puan , jemput rakan2 , jomlah kita makan"
Lepas makan kitaorg mandi sungai lg for like 15minutes je. Then prepare for solat magrib.
Makan and solat Isya'. Pastu ada mcm marks calculating.
Then by 11 we went to bed. Had haaaard time sleeping. pukul 11 , too early eh.

Sunday
Pukul 5.20 bangun balik for subuh. Semua kemamai. haha
Then ada breakfast pastu main game!
oh ni best , ni untuk "Menara Impian" . main game called BolaTin.
ni sumpah susah nk explain tp yg pasti. ada 2 group . 1 group kena attack 1 lg kena try untuk bina mcm menara out of the tin . Tp kalau team yg nk defend ni kena bola. diorg out lah. Marks were taken by the time used. My group were the 3rd out of 5. hehe. Shouted all the way again. The facilitator siap ckp group kitaorg paling best. hehe

Then supposedly mandi/main sungai . p bdk2 perempuan mostly mls nk tukar baju en. So we lepak dlm bilik je. oooh , we started to tak about narnia vs HP& vs Twilight. Then Maher Zain vs Bruno Mars.
and evrytime someone goes like "Ok ,sape minat Bruno?" and sutff Kitaorg akan menjerit2 lagi.,
You know girls,haha smpai ada faci lelaki mcm risau gila kat luar. haha . omg love that moment.

Oooh , omg . The Crying session!
Uishh , they had crying session. Didn't cry obviously.
Kaki kebas. Sakit leher . Tangan berpeluh . perghh..tp bnyk je org nangis lah.
and after semua dah settle down the facillator ckp mcm2 lah , and there's this part. "Bagi yg menangis tu..Alhamdulliah. Yg tk tu , saya tk tau lah nk ckp apa. Tu urusan awk...Dia senang je. Dalam hati awak ni boleh ada satu je. Awk nk bg syaitan masuk ke malaikat...tu awk decide lah...." - And he sorta out look me in the eyes ooooh.. I was like shit..plus trying to look sad. haha , tk guna betul . Ey i mean mana boleh judge mcm tu je . *kening-kening*
Even the facilitator yg ddk blkng i were like " Yg ni dr td tutup mata..." i mean aish , potong stim deyy.hahaa

Then er..smbhyng zohor. Pastu get ready untuk majlis penutup . Susun ikut alphabetic.
pastu kemas barang and get ready for the majlis. Dpt sijil and stuffs.
THE END
Bye2 facilitator and all . dah lah .

It was superbbb
I had sooo much fun in terms friends.
idk , kat sana bnyk org best2. Well , not really. mostly are like shyshy alim naah.
but the rest were AWESOME
my pals there were ; Shazreen , shahera , Aina , Zana , and Ain. mostly ni semua kawan masa kem motivasi pmr i had earlier.

and the facilitator pun mmg best gila. Diorg tu semua "powerful" ada yg iman mekah. ada ketua disiplin kat department.Islam ke apa nth. Tp somehow semua kelakar gilaaa.
and almost all of them*the guys* are army or Ex army. Tu la psl mula2 nmpk diorg fascinated gilaa. ;')
haha , and ada yg muka mcm black. Told him that and we become close ever since :)
I had hard time though. Mula2 lah , cant decide if this is a Khemah Ibadah sorta of thing. Or Jungle Survival kinda of thing
so its both lah actually. like Diorg Askar Tp diorg jugak Ustad.
It was organize by Exact consultant.And diorg akan hantar video and picture through post. Gila best deyy
but meanwhile you can see on my fbck. bhgian tagged pic

Ya Allah , panjang sgt2 . Cant stop I can go on double like this.

Cuti Cuti

2010-11-25T01:39:00.000-08:00

reaaaaaaaally have to collect money as many as possible (to make the impossible be possible)

im gonna have to depends on pmr result.

plus my own money and some duit raya.

i need in total of rm 1800

and skrg baru ada 440 .

That's what i meant by making the impossible , possible.

And sebab tu lah aku nk keje gila babi ,babi.

At least boleh dpt 200 in total.dah membantu
you have no idea how hard it is

Tapi December dah nk start tuition

i dnt even know where at. Semua my mum handle XD

yg confirm , Add Maths , Chemistry and physic.

omg , im learning those. Eeeheee o.0

well oh well , tgh nk tuition yg tu cos those sub KENA start early.

i mean , jgn start next year oh , seriouslyy.

and for chem * i think.

I NEEEEED GROUP OF PEOPLE.

hell yeah , result belum keluar , class belum confirm.

But better try drpd miss right

Yeah , its on my mind.
form4 aint honeymoon year man.
*Their language
mmg , form 4 bahayaaa .
its like form 1 all over again.
gotta focus to understand from the beginning D:

So i've been watching movies this hols.
no , not supernatural as planned :(
either tgk kat wayang , dvds or even laptop.
watch devils wear prada last night ,
Dear john the the day before that.
Harry Potter last week
and Unstoppable the day after. < ni best!

so im planning to but dvd cerita "let me in and megamind"
tgk lah nanti .
im on antibiotic.untuk jerawat. HAHA ,yeah L-O-L
i dnt really hang out .
I spend 17 ringgit pun dah nk nangis.
hahaha , dnt care . So fucking desperate
even 5 cents count
mama kasi 5 ringgit / day kadang2 fr fun
thats it

D-O-N-E

2010-11-25T01:03:00.000-08:00

Hmm , :) no more pmr year man.

tahun ni is a bit busier compare dgn the past years.

started with Props for Ruby , Kks & Kgt , and Sidang Ridaksi *yg aku sebenarnya tk pyh masuk campur pun.Saja je *
well , next year mesti bnyk org pindah . Those smartass student :O
oh , aku tk kisah pun sapa2 pindah . no one im really gonna miss.
Oh wait , ada that smartass guy. haa

ok , the wajib issue.
post yg dh diplanned spnjg tahun
form 5's
Well , tahun ni punya form 5 aku plg rapat sekali
mesti lah kwn my sis what..
so im gonna post a few of them .
hehe , starts with the boys

Azrie ; Ooh , mula2 rpt dgn dia kat Ruby . Then straight to the magazine.
aku suka skp gan dia cos rasa mature. haha , sort of.

Rezza ; Ni pun sama .mula2 ruby then mag. er..we talk mostly bout the Jared guy . Yeaaa , dia informer untk tahun ni . this guy and another one , taufiq -.-

Jaredguy ;The Crush :Aww , haha . bodo lah . i like for real . Will be a lil ewwish if i go any deeper. lol . like him through out the year. Tapi dah tk sukaa. haha
you can see in my previous post psl 'R1'. Ahaa , since that day . terus *snapping finger* DONE.
so thankss to that r1 which is the informer of the year jgk . *yes , tgk atas*
Somewhere after graduation , bnyk form 5 dh tahu so slowly semakin expose smpi dia sendiri pun tahu .

The girls
Ivy : Oooh, ni pun sama gan the guys , mula2 rapat dkt ruby then magazine .
Kah yan : ni rapat dkt magazine. She's like my boss lah , ambik gmbr tunjuk kat dia

~

worthnothingbutitsokey

2010-11-08T07:10:00.000-08:00

I NEEED A NEW CAMERAAAAAA

Need a dslr or semi-dslr(lx3, the g's , etc) pun jadi lah

i got plan yaww , oh come on im soo not obvious .

Hell no im not telling the plan

well , nanti lah someday

Its pretty obvious already though

Its all going to depends on PMR result.

Like i said , i have no idea what i would get if i score well,

never really care to ask.

all i know maybe my atuk and others will give like 1A rm10

Tkpa , any amount would help :)

so far i only have er..rm440

Duit raya + Kumpul *omg , so sad ;'(

and i need x4 of that amount.

= rm 1720++

oh well , that is why i need goooood pmr result

so i can claim all over ;)

and it is seriously "slowly progressing"

we only have like 7 days in school

S-E-V-E-N

ok , im not gonna start on the "No more..no more..."

oh okk, this is fucking stupid.

need in total rm 1900

ya Allah. sounds so..hmm ;|

so i've been surveying every night. since the last day of pmr

Yg wajib punya website is :

Mudah.my - Tgk market price kat malaysia

testfreaks.com/digitalcameras - Tgk review & spec

Alatest.co.uk - Second opinion punya review

Dpreview.com - tgk samples gambar & 3rd review

if possible i nk dslr instead of the semi-dslr *or interchangeable blahblah*

Bcos like the biasa guna dslr , shouldnt waste what i've learn all this while

Oh and i obviously improved ;))

ingat lagi awal2 dulu.

Was really impress with people yg guna manual setting

i mean right now seriously nothing.

i use manual sometimes, bila ada masa untuk ubah

manual focus manual setting yaww, hahaha

So im preety okey with the techinicals , dh fhm almost all

just need to tukar lens/camera and learn editing a bit

So yes , wish me luck and doakan aku dpt collect duit.

or you can just ask your parent gimme money if i get good result

HAHAHA XD

byeee , esk gi zoo -.-

Weeek revieww

2010-10-29T04:49:00.000-07:00

Monday ; Had some really really boring activities. Had like passing / whispering some word.Geography quizzes .Played monopoly , by our own.

Tues ; Had badminton tournament between classes , pretty interesting. Love the co-operation & team work of our class

Wed ; Was away , i was at sepang for a trip o DCA , (control tower) pretty cool , thought its gonna be boring but it was quite good. Lots of technical stuff . Whole day based on "Air Crash Investigation on Discovery"

Thurs : Ugh , hari plg almost tk dtg. Really2 cant open my eyes. ngantuk.
Came anyway for he magazine thing that didn't work out until now *since monday* Aaah , ok time rehat , lepak with the form5's for awhile . and there's this dialog

R1 : Weh , dia minat pelakon supernatural dowh

R2 : Sam ke Dean ?

me & R1 : sam..

R1 ; Dia kata ada budak sekolah muka mcm Sam tu

me : *jaw drops*

R2 : aa? oh aku lah tu. hahaha

R1 ; Bukan lah bodoh , ****** tu aa

R2 : Hah? hahahaha

and then mcm ok fine lah , tkda pape lagi.

Then i asked R1 go to talk to the *****

and he literally did.

R1 : Oi , ***** , peminat kau dowh ! *pointing at me*

me : Babi lah kaaau ! *nyorok belakang R1, and pinched he's back , tk nk pndg ****

R1 : *synical smile*

i dnt kno how he reacted , i think he smile.

i was like menenangkan myself blkng R1

then i just buat tak tau , and pretend everything's fine
the girls at the table(nadia , fatihin and others) were like speechless a bit*they knew

I mean , omg what the hell was wrong with him. Waghh , nak nangis

aand its confusing. Because in a way its good but you know .

-__________________________-"

*The good part is that , he knew . i wanted he to know, since dh nk abis sekolah

though dia mesti dh suspect gila2 punya ;D

the suckass part is , Duh ! I cant minat him or anything anymore. Its gonna be real serious one after this

Friday ; Er..we had a Psychologist from unitar . Had some career test thing.

like i said many many times. Psychology test doesnt always work for me.

im the pychologist , you cant do test one me. i can understand perfectly what they are trying to investigate.
its like giving the Physics test at the Physicians.
But ada lah 15% helpful...

Oh , and After rehat i was leaning on the table and R1 walked infront
then i terus go slammed him and all.
Kuat lah jgk :)
So girls , or anyone saw me knocking him just now , This is why

R1 : Apa aku buaaat ?!!!
me : apa kau buat lah now ! *ketukketuk*
R1 : Eh eh , oiii
me ; Omg ,babi laaa waghaa. Ugh , i hate you so much
R1 : Hahahahahahaha *smiles*
me : Go die lah you.

Oh , and the frustrating / saddess part of this week
i brought camera to school everyday , supposely nk kena ambk gmbr for mag
p whole week tk jd.
its like dtg sekolah really really Excited.
and at the end of the day , bengang a bit.
and the next day starts all over again
dah lah charger camera dh hilang .
suffering bai

And class pary is gonna be on 13h Nov.
maybe i wanna go "bertugas" as in sidang thing

2010-10-28T00:33:00.000-07:00

HAVE TO CLICK THIS LINK.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nlth4yHaxq0&feature=related
AAAAH

omg , video i've watch like thousand times and cant stop laughing.

Laughs and smiles like them

OH GOD , I WANNA HAVE LAUGH LIKE DEAN AND SMILES LIKE SAM/JARED
pleasee? >.<
Senang citer tgk video tu laaah deyy
;'))

drumrolls THE DAY I'VE IMAGINED/HOPE/PLAN TO HAPPEN FOR THE WHOLE YEAAAR

2010-10-25T05:00:00.000-07:00

Ahaa having mixed feeling now.

tehee

So the Graduation day

wait , a week before the day

Kakra : Awine , for graduation awine bertugas tau

me : *mata terbeliak like shit and speechless gila*

all this thoughts all over my head. and unplanned tersenyum and say "ha-ha, asl..?" *totally don't mean that one

i mean yaww , im not really in the sidang or anything, remember

Yeah , IM NOT. though i lie many many time.

yelah , people ask,tk akan nk explain satu2 kot

and the main reason i speechless was , damn i've imagine and hope it came true the whole year

D-Day

woke up at 6.30 , ngantuk gila gila . slept at 3.

tp hari important mana boleh miss, haha

got that by 8 , in school uniform.!

masuk2 fatin, shirene and alisya tgh greet org , Yay!

had some minor heart attack , coz everyone started to stare cos baju sekolah lah.

like 15 minutes later baru cool down sikit, then start snap-ping around baby

kat luar, time diorg tgh prepare,it was stil fine. My pictures, some over exposed tp dh edit

Tp bila dh dalam hall , omg. I feel so helpless

cheh over tk lah mcm tu sekali. But mcm tk tau lngsng apa nk buat dgn cam

and lgpun , it looks fine on screen tp kat screen comp, Yekk

anyway , took pic here and there, switch cam with En.Khairi.

i lepak with him coz i cant really "BE EVERYWHERE" no even in front of the stage.

its protocols thing .

sekejap je the event went , pastu they have like an hour for snapping pictures

comel eh , bg masa nk mengedik ;)

pastu i made some time for my own pleasure

haha , i took pic with that jared guy. *this is the part i imagine the whole year*

took like 4 pics kot , dia gelak je kerja , well i make him laugh coz i cant stop laughing on my own

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

the only picha im in *i think*

ok lah tu, bertanggungjawab

So afterward change my baju , and went to pavi.

bnykk org. no lah there's a lot but the one lepak with us ada 10

makan dkt sana , wasted gila makanan

tgh malas nk makan ,eventhough lapar

makanan tk habis , mine more then half tk hbs

wasted 13.80 , for 2 what

oh anyway ,jaredguy dtg balik kjap dgn gf dia . Had lunch and stuff

then he left , we go walk walk around
lepak Jco before balik , and those people yg tinggal trying to korek about this jaredguy
they were "First letter..?""race..?"'kelas..?"
i was like tk boleh2

and HABIS CERITA

so i had 486 pictures all in , tp after dh delete yg fail2 tu.

dh ada 367.so edited overnight last night ,

touch sikit2 lah .,

coz nk kena hand in kat editor/Al arif today

heh , kinda funny think arif yg compose my pic . Sbb mcm tiba2 end up kat dia pulak

Oh well , still. Thanks for the goddamn batt charger.

seriously cant find mine

Cuma harini dgn esk nak ambik gmbr sikit2 lagi .

Final stage , im taking .

"Aku bukan member pun aku bertugas" thats what i said to them in lab just now

serious , im doing this for my own pleasure.

time fly fast,please

2010-10-16T12:42:00.000-07:00

Haish , having the normal after exam situation
baru 3 hari cuti (selasa + weekends) dh boring gila gila punya
mmg tkda benda langsung nak buat
internet mcm tg rosak sikit. Kena psg direct as in have to dial - up and stuff
cant use the wi-fi.
game..? idk , i dnt really have/play one. i mean ,the sims je ada. Itupun kene re-install coz the corrupted and cd kat maymun.
damn , need my Xbox. ada Burnout,gta and stuff. (burnout fav for xbox)
oh, xbox dh rsk btw , dah lamaaa dah
the only thing i've been doing lately , is tgk camera.
Yeaah , i meaan survey camera online.
i dnt go search for photographs and stuff.
i search for cameras, im waaaay more intrested in camera compare to this "photography" thing
dia mcm , counselor and psychology .
im NOT intrested in counselor but kalau dh ambik Psycho mestilah kena study counselor gak en..

so internet dh nyawa2 ikan , game tarak , Tv boring. aritu ada commenwealth tgk ah jgk skrg dh nothing much
nak keluar2 pun a bit..Err.Plus have to do moreee house work like jemur baju, kemas baju , angkat baju since no more big exam coming up soon.(all the baju2 thing. Wish there's like rails all over the house dari machine ke tempat jemur baju ke almari terus ke tempat baju kotor and machine again.)
Heh imagination

haih , lifeless. So so lifeless right now,
and meanwhile i have to make up my mind for what stream to take for next year,
Pure vs Subs.
both got good and bad.
malas nk cerita , ok make it short lah
Accounts subs senang/ boleh nak score and Pure Sc tak sure lagi boleh score ke tak ;) Well, it is god damn hard Sc is very the "kena belajar all the time" while acc boleh review last minute.

But then , most courses in U or senang citer most jobs needs basic science.
and i dnt wanna be an accountant. Its toooooo compliacted in U nanti.
ada stastisic , Econs,Bussiness and mcm2. Every single thing yg ada numbers dalam dunia ni.
Plan to see the school counselors and senior.

and honestly yaww , im pretty excited for result day
no not because i did good in pmr or anything, *dnt even think tat way
just nth , mcm Make it over
my target is 4A's (before exam target , lepas exam tk nk ckp ;P )
and somehow , i tk tau pun apa dpt if i get straight A/ good result.
and i dnt even know whats their target. Abah for sure target straight coz abah never know whats my standard is . Mama , damn tk tau . ni lagi bahaya :D
i was/am too scared to ask what would i get .
and mcm "tk logic" dpt pun ada..
maybe i will ask smthng if i get 6 *goddamn impossible, i know
Maybe lah , nth . dnt dare to ask anything now

Pe-em-aaar take 3 days to post this

2010-10-13T04:46:00.000-07:00

Yeaaaaaaay , Pmr's over.
Fuhh, no more tuitiooon . no more "Stop eating this and that " and most important one "Belajar lah , periksa esk karang dah"
Oh well , thats the only thing to be happy about.
haha , idk lah .

Ok ok . How was the paper?

Bm - Paper1 was pretty tough. Paper2 was better *hopeful* ( Did about the pelancongan.One of my best topics,Yay)
Bi - Both also very easy one..haha :D Idea melimpah ruah.*wtf. No no , dnt wanna be over confident.

Agama - Grrr...ada chance untuk tk fail. Tp tkda chance untuk A
geografi -Err..agk senang. Tp ada few stupid stupid(!) mistakes..*frust gila
Sc - Ergh..i guess, u can see on fcbk or blogs on how hard it was. I mean , im sooo not sure man, A? damn damn hard to get. The paper2 was epic shit
Sejarah - Yay , Thankgod! Senanggggg :)

Mths - Er..oh omg , another nasib baik question. Pheww. i mean , nasib baik blh jwb. and and, i've asked my cikgu tuition check the paper, and guess how much i scored? *winks*
39/40 . The one yg slh is question number 2 .Haishh , so. BIG chance.
Kh- Omggggggg, Kh susaaaaaaah ;'(((( . wahaa bapak sial . tak sure susah ke apa. tp mcm so so so not cnfdent bout that one. Ahaa

so the hardest would be Kh and sc
easiest- sejarah .maths also not bad. Bm and bi easier then expected.

Oh and somehow , i dnt really study as expected (on the pmr week) nth
and lagpun , i dnt know , tk rasa ni mcm exam pmr pun. Haha sbb dh bnyk sgt buat exam

Oh yeah , haha tk tau asl on the day after pmr (selasa)
Takda mood gila
dnt feel like clbrating . Nth , maybe bcoz the last paper, Kh was vey hard.
or maybe i dnt have...nevermind
hehe :)

today first day for the after pmr days
We're not gonna be in class anymore.
Bcoz HE is in my class.hahah , tk lah
the form 5's are taking over and we're got activitied planned out for us.
today ada those English actvities (taboo and stuff) and Treasure hunt ikut class (under Bm)
the treasure hunt was intrestinggg. Suprising how much everyone were being semangat seriously
sweats like shit. And end num 3 *supposedly
but because of that WOMAN pergi buang one of the clue *sorta of
we got disqualified. Yeaaaah
so that what i meant bout my status on facebook.
The tense. love it

and we are in the treasure hunt under sc jugakk
but this one group sendiri

all in one aa

2010-09-21T02:23:00.000-07:00

Rayaa
Ahaa, malasnya nk post
er..ok. pretty simple this year
but i had fun obviously .
duit raya . SIKIT GILAA
but nth this year, not really looking foward for duit raya
so , ok lah

Oh , the gerak gempur + exam
Yeaaaah , sudden exam
seriously , there should MOREEE exam through out the year.
this gerak gempur is the only one additional exam under school
yes, there should be more gerak gempur jugak. but the one like fasa 1 lah
Really really help. Especially mt, geo and sc

Pmr is in FOURTEEN days , sayang oi
Astagfirullahazim . (sorry if wrong spelling )
and too bad after the 2 weeks break .
i dnt have to semangat belajar anymore ;'(
hahaha *fake one*

I've stopped my "pusat tuition's tuition"

am focusing more on Personel tuition baby

-Math , Bi , Geo and Sejarah

and the coolest part? my mth and bi tuition are just few blocks away

ecehh , haha . No lah , its in my neighbourhood so jln kaki je

Im uploading the gmbr raya and i cant believe i havent stop facebook-ing

yeah , i cant "work" without fb.

That's why kalau fb hilang or watever

my hilang memories

hilang 2000+ picture

wat do you expect

ahaha

Aw, i miss class !
xoxo XD
gay-est.
ahaha

Ahaa

2010-09-03T11:07:00.000-07:00

Im leaving now, i mean tomorrow after sahur

yeah, long time no post aa ?

busy busy *i guess

well,this year first raya at Kelantan *my dad's

but then , starting tmrow until selasa we will be at terengganu

then selasa until raya ke2 kelantan

and raya ke2/3 back to trg

yeaah , kl - Trg/klntn : 7/8 hours (musim raya might take up to 14 hours)

trg- kelantan ; 2 hours

tiring..tkpe

this year baju for first raya ; white with purple flora design ; baju kurung phg

2nd raya : Abstrack design of green, yellow and black; baju kurung moden

omg..so excited.

-Making cornflake at trgnu with cousins kat dapur

-The boys bakar satay

-the kids crying and screaming soo bad that make u feel like wanna letak ur fist in the mouth

- The elders talking about us behind our back*tats normal. not offended or anything

and as expected ; STUDY -___________-"

like everyyyyy teacher said. "raya raya jugak. Exm dh dekat "

Ok , enough said.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA , GUYS

maaf zahir & Batin :D

Haishh

2010-08-26T01:28:00.000-07:00

Eee..Trial is like..really HARD

Yang susah ; Sejarah !wtf gilaa , yg cnfrm tahu/betul like 7/8 je. , Bm , Bi

Geo , maths , kh and science are just nice

and agama is like goddamn easy. i mean , if i boleh jwb everyhing. means senang lah tu

i think my kh ,agama , geo ,maths and sc would be better the last time

and somehow i dnt really study much for this exam

mehehe , dah lah exam ni important gila Bapaaak ;O

Haihyaa , its 26 august already ohh.

and i still belum dpt any A

babi laa ,rasa mcm nak ketuk smthg,

Seriously

2010-08-19T07:55:00.000-07:00

IT LOOKS LIKE I'M OBSESS WITH YOU , KAN ?

"It become much stronger when you keep it inside"

Baghhhh.

you see , i dnt really do this emo-tic post ; picture with one word.

and if i do. i bet it will very very obvious.

Bagh. so choose to..?

remain silence and wait for the year to end

get to know him but still get ready for the year to end.

and no contactcontact because its gonna work. So why waste ur time kan?

ok, Would you still get to know someone if you know he/she is leaving soon?

Eyaaaahdd *ok, idk what is that

2010-08-19T07:41:00.000-07:00

Aku hampir hilang camera !

ok, make it short lah.

Sabtu lepas, kakra gi seminar skor A tu kat UM for spm.

Pastu camera tertinggal kat dlm bas otw back.

Balik2 tu terus call the number yg kat catalog tu..then dpt lah contact after several times trying

then that guy (Mr.Chandra) contact bus driver

pastu dia gi ambikkan dari bus driver tu kat selayang.. (gila babi baik en..;')

then hari selasa gi ambik kat tuition centre diorg , Prestige,Melawati

and Yeyeaah, dpt balik.

Oh..aa "main point"

haha , 1st) Gila lawaa tempat tu. i mean untuk tuition. So exclusive.

tp harga tk mahal lah. Ok. Next year next year

2) oh..er, shiva was there too. He and this Mr Chandran mcm tgh promote gila2 tuition diorg ni, tp tgh in rush

He was like " Your mum ckp, u baru balik dari tuition. Kat mana? "

and shiva was like "bagus tk?! ramai org tk ? apa nama?

i mean , Eehee, mcm tgh nk curik customer.

hahaha.

Pastu diorg tanya kakra pegi tk untuk this sat punya.

she said maybe and he said Make sure this time you stapler ur camera

delayed delayed

2010-08-12T07:30:00.000-07:00

Sat , 7 aug.

Aww, ;'( . No more class at Klcc . how sadd . 5 classes je . Every saturday .
waghh.
we had er..all subject except kh. (oh yess,including agama.)
mostly , cikgu sekolah Datuk Lokman.
I enjoy every sec there. and somehow lg bnyk lelaki dari perempuan .
so , dh jd kwn dgn bdk2 lelaki semua tu.
Semua mostly jenis baik2. Yg agak gangster sikit. Ada bout 5.
Total all almost 70 lah . Oh yea, ada gak geng sbs sorang ; Syakir, 3M

Sat , ptg
uih, maisara punya adik punya partyy
hm-mm , erm..was greaaat :D
the best part , mmg the game lah . obviously ;)
we were like fascillitator or smthg.
mcm dkt koko pun ada gak , u know like menjerit2 kat bdk2 kecik .
yg ada geng kitaorg , me and ezrin je lah
fatin and aina cant make it. so 3 of us mcm plan the game and all
and..Supernatural helps babeyh ! Hooyeaah =D
haha , the Apple Bobbing (i seriously dnt kno how to spell )
ada supernatural season 4, episode apa nth , awal2
naah check out the pic on fb lah

sat , malam
Yes , it was a busyy day for me
clbrate bday along kat rumah cumi, Subang
Uish , saw REMY. kucing aku aritu ! Remember ...? the twin ?
All grown up , and obviously tk cam kitaorg dah -__________-"
and and and !
GOT BACK MY CAMERAAAAA ! omg ! damn it !
Ahh , :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
Heaven sake !
bila go true the cam . Dah mcm tk familiar at all.
Yeaah. Tp masalahnya , mcm made a deal going to give her camera back the next time we meet
Phbbbt ! tk nk. take it after Raya->pmr -> Class Party
then baru boleh :DD

and finally, a post about Gerak Gempur
er..im in sederhana.
gerak gempur DOES HELP , a lot
the best i would say , Geo<33 and Science (Rosilawati ) , 3rd, math
yg lain semua cikgu sendiri. Tkde bezaa
but yeah , overall its good *thumbs up
and kalau ada survey diorg tanya, i would say Pn Teoh (Geo) is sooo goood
and too bad its over. ;'( untuk trial punya laa , pmr belumm la
shit laa Trial next week
Trial ni...Antara hidup dan mati !
Hahaha , dramatic.
seriously, first dia akan affect the form's 4 class . 2nd , it will also affects your confident level untk omr.
kalau ada sub Fail . mmg confirm i'll be like sooo berserah
mcm pmr-> spm -> course untk masuk U ->"Job for live,man !"
and, tmrow masuk class (yeay..?)
bye, chivas
*apa tu ?

SHOUT !

2010-08-12T07:11:00.000-07:00

watched this erm.. SHOUT! musical yesterday
check out the web lah

idk , my mum's aunty (haha) called . ckp ada extra ticket
ada 3, just nice. it was somewhere KL Pac (kl performing art centre). kat sentul
ok first, the klpac itself mmg lawaaaaa gila. Kalau adaa photosshoot or anything that is soooo the place. Gorgeous , ada mcm coliseum and stuff

and er..there were 6 of us. and kitaorg naik myvi. Bahaa, kira kat blkng 4 org . Me, kakra,acim and zariff ank my mum's aunty. Sampai2 nasib baik belum start coss we were late
and..mehee , seat depaaaan sekali. it says on the ticket VVIP.
i mean, V.I.P cukup. nak smpi double V pulak. Aiyoo
*and obviously i keep the tic.haha

the show was just like 1 hour 30 minutes.
dnt ask wats is about. i hate summarising
haha, ambik kau kan dh msk bi.
and honestly, aku lupa its Avinash bday party..
hehe , nvm lah bukannya aku kenal dia pun

so dah start
Best gilaaaaa, it was suppppper great
i just idk, i was smiling all the time :)
and there's a song bout sex. penis and vagina *smug face*
smthg like "im feeling horny..i need penissssssss"
HAHAHAHA *ignore ignore

UM seminar and Last day of unit beruniform koko for 2010

2010-07-28T04:04:00.000-07:00

UM seminar

It was okeey. some sub was good some..not

The good one ; SEJARAH ! the best ! , Geografi , naah dia ada banyak kasi ramalan.

The not bad ; Math , and bm

The not goood ; Sc and Bi. This one tak sure, sbb dah start ngantuk (last 2 sub ) ke mmg a bit boring.

Well, er..oh. Cant believe the whole f3 girls who went for this seminar (ok, not all for sure )

FALL IN LOVE WITH MR.SHIVA AND KARAN

Oh mah god ;))

-shiva is the sejarah teacher, and he's a lecture in UM/UPM for mass com i think. See, no wonder he is like attractive , because of the "com mu ni ca tion skills" . Hahaha, he even have a fan page on facebook "we love shiva ramana" Pretty..lol?

-Karan was the MC je laa, but he's hooot . Many people says he look like hindustan actor. Agree ! :D

Koko Pbsm last

Oh myyy ;'((

Oh that guy is goneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

ehee , so saddd,

cant see him anymoree . Damn

naah , i wont such much here.

The feeling become stronger stronger because it remain silent inside

Aw, i "use" to feel the same way kat a good friend of mine . but now, it has become the Wildest Dream

But this, er f5 guy. Damnn, 2010 guy :))))))

standard

2010-07-23T03:34:00.000-07:00

ok..so let see, what happen this week
er..mon,tue nothing much;nothing i can remember
Wednesday,
hee ~ terbongkar already -____-
ok , er..i have like 2 guy im kinda crushing on
1 is total spontenous and dont really mean it. a junior
and the 1 is..just the opposite of the other one :))
haha, and Nishal and Shirene figure out..
lamaaa gila nk bg diorg clue. and yg guess betul was nick/nicholas
Ishhhh ;O
and eversince there we've started to gedikgedik like we did with bryan
Aww ;')
p.s : it ends right at the canteen table !

and thurs,
got this ezi science
talks bout sc one whole day
Ergh..boringgg. no jokes no fun yaww !
suppose to get CD right? where is it !
and also English club partaayyy.
last meeting ; party
we ate domino pizzas
ada banyaaak gila.
15 boxes.
at the end extra, 2.
i bring home 1 whole box, coz no one there (between the one incharge ) wants seafood pizza
tp end up tinggal setengah bila blk rumah. bg org sana sini

somewhere between thurs and fri
Shitttt ~
LOST my pencil box and calculatorrr ;'(
Haishh, sayanngggg gila.
i have like sooooo many stuff in it
my pencil box is just sooooo packed and perfect.
i have almost 30 + pens and pencil
because i just loveee buying pens wherever i go
its like a collection, and i remeber where i bought every single of it
Erghhh.ada yg beli masa kat ampg puteri ;'(
Fuck laa, who would eveeer curi pencil box ?
like seriously ! i rather losing money then those pens
i hope you die kena langgar lori
GO DIE
muahahahaha

Fridaay
all emo-up because of the pencil box thing
GO DIE
-______________-"

yeayeayeayea

2010-07-15T03:08:00.000-07:00

Petanque today

Petanque today pegi pandan lake club untuk Bowlingg

walked there. thank god ada shortcut.

so mcm walking distance 15-25 minutes. mcm gi lrt je (kot )

ada ez , geng2 eleena , semua budak petanque laa

except mai since she dont play bowling and she prefer to go with awssem and others

did i spell his name right ? Ah , biar ! aku tunggu kau sejam kat bus stop yang bus asap mcm siaaal panas gila babi . Ckp skjap skjap . last2 lagi sejam . gi mampus !

sumpah bengang gila babi, mcm tk ada hati perut ! tk respect.ok fine , aku yg tumpang kau . so i shouldnt complain , tp mcm kalau dah lagi sejam tuuu jgn ah ckp dh nk smpi mcm sial

Phbttt ! *middle fingerh *
- ni masa cheer comp last sunday ;)

me and ez group lain tp sebelah2

then staaaart !

wohoo , i started goood ;))). then went doooown ;((

haha , Ezrin LAGI TERUK

we played 2 games. the first she got.idk

but the second ! 6 kali dia dapat dot dot means tk hit apa2 laaah *for you yg taaak pernah main -.-

i mean, at least hit smthg !

so at the end me scored 63,( G1 : 32, G2 : 31) and ez scored 51 . - I bloody sucks at bowling
-___________-

Muahaaa !

tp tk abis "nazreen kalah dgn budak dpt dot dot 6 kali !'

I woooon lah yooo! Ahaaa, kesian aku ;')))

fatin was there too, tp dia tk main .

Kan arini bday Avinash , so td kena "gang bang " dgn diorg semua kat sana

whoosh

And on the way backlagi best then on the way dtg .

though lagi penat laa, sebab kitaorg lari2 , ada anjing , main kat playground plus all the laughing psl i kalah kat org yg dpt dot dot 6 kali

-_______________-"

EEEEEEEEEEEEE ! hahahahaha

So yeaah , it was fun ! greaat! thanks to Aidil for ajar-ing us few stuff

i sooooooo wanna play bowling again.

like i have to practise , im suck at this :(

So ezrin and fatin ? After PMR .. i knoww :)

Haishh

2010-07-13T07:04:00.000-07:00

Things are soooo fucked up right now.So tense. So so so tense . Feels burning inside.the Silent Attack
in class, ( Yeap , YOU'RE one of it -________-") - Everyday dtg sekolah have to handle the samee issue. Ish , ~~I'm suck at defending~~,
in study - I've started to slooowly studying f1 and f2. Well heyy , i never did. Just the second sem spirit i guess
in..financial - Duit Habiss woo -______-
daily routine - Gosh busy everyyyyday. even weekend

I just really hope they understand better. Though , obviously they never does.
But cant i just hope ? I know lah, this would be our last year together.
but i dont expect things to turn out this way like soooo fast.
I mean , i wouldn't be surprise if you knoww.. "things happen" next year . Dah kitaorg tk kelas sama , ada yang akan pindah laa. So why cant we have one last great year together huh ? Though , it feels like screaming inside everytime we're together. Sorry , we cant have memories together , guys. I got nothing to tell when we grow up. I've tried . ~~so sekarang kita tunggu mati je la~~

The "Open Day'

2010-07-02T06:45:00.001-07:00

Its yea, 2nd July 2010

the open day

OK , sepatutnya mama yang ambik report card.

*since every year its gotta be her

in fact mama dh mmg bersemangat pun ;)))

but end up , mama still kat shah alam by 11 somthingg.Mama register my kakak kat U. mana sempat en..

soooo (!)

Abah yang ambik report card.

muahaha , first ! abah tak akan marah

second ! i dnt have to stay kat meja cikgu tu lama lama listening to everyone's sarcasm and "not-helping's motivation talk " *naah, motivation just don't do for me . Depends on sapa yg ckp. tp jarang jumpa yg ok (there were 3 teachers. Uihh)

My turn lepas Maisara. haha

no 22 kau tauuu ! the/my lucky numberr! weheee

so..? Apa cikgu cmmnt :D

The Positive's;

"Nazreen ni budak baik encik.Dia rajin , respect orang,cikgu2 semua , disiplin semua no hal. dengan kawan2 pun saya nampk dia baik .Lagipun sebenarnya dia friendly encik..(as in friendly kt cikgu2 and kwn2. ) "- whosssh

"Dia ni..nak kata bising tk jugak. dia jenis kalau diam makna tgh buat kerja la tu. Kalau bising, aa..tu saya tak tau laa tkda kerja ke apa. Tp dia..kira ckp bila perlu. (maknanya ! aku mcm bising yg bersesuaian. hahaha)

The negative's ;

"Nazreen ni satu benda saya tgk . Dia cepat hilang focus. Dia mcm..bila dia rasa dia boring ke, otak tk leh terima tu..dia hilang la focus" - Agaak betul.Haha*eh masa ni Uztad Zamri ckp "tu la saya ajar dia pun, mcm tu la dia "

so, lagi byk positives dr negatives

and oh right the results

2B4C2D

get it ?

- aku dpt 15 hinggit dari arif arini. :))

- tolong/lepak wit iman kat kedai under KH punya club quite long, hampir sejam . wah, a good "practical aa" haha
-and teringgal fail -________-' wah, jgn laa hilang

Khemah Ibadah 10' !

2010-06-27T03:50:00.000-07:00

yeaaa

smpi sana lebih kurang pukul 3.

daftar semua2. tgh panic and excited.

then er..program strt. bahagian hafal2 benda2 pafa.

cikgu group aku Hamimy, best!! laugh like every single conversation we had.

aiyoo.

pastu sembahyang semua2.

the "crying session#1"

ohmaigod.

i cried ! wow! damn impressiveee

haha, aku taaaak penah nangis psl benda2 ni. like seriously, biasanya aku akan dengar then buat 2 sedih. Hee, (also means the penceramah is damn gooooood)

maybe sbb this year ada pmr kot, for sure aku nangis not really about things i've done.

more to things i might not be able to do. to keep a promise i've made

then just go hughug around. called arif from far. hee, uztad pandang je. pastu mai,maymun and others terus serbu.Aww..

wanted to see hilmie. but he was in "bad-condition". Tp at last ,jumpa jgk. apologise and all..

appologise kat seniors and friends. salam cikgu though i dnt whyy :))

(and lagi hug lagi nak nangis)

p.s : best gilaaaa nangis. Sedaap

then we did this tulis surat thing.

mine isnt that 'emotional' lah

gave that to cikgu Huda.*since she's the counselor*

pastu tidoo

uih, susun tmpt tido

yg tk bnyk brg tido berterima kasihlah anda untuk orang2 yang bawak

haha, no no, not that sacarstic. mmg direct

bangun2 sakit kaki sbb kaki sejuk..and tido 2 jam. gila babeng

Qiamulail

wagh, solat sunat

kesian kat that penceramah/pengacara

tkda org layan sgt..semua tgh kemamai lg

then kawad practise-makan-lecture balik

Ish, part paling boringgg masa sebelum personality test tu.

nth apa event. masa part zoooom in zooooom out.

Ya Allah, lebih baik bg kitaorg tidoo

pastu lecture2 smpi balik

ada crying sesion #2 . This one i didnt cry.(told'ya)

i kinda like blocked my mind. aku tk menghayati sgt

tk tau asl. dari awal dia suruh tutup mata dh mcm "im not doing this"

mcm malas. sbb the night before dh nangis teruk

and i peeked few times ! no lah, like twice. naah

2 pack pocket tissue habis. Uish :)))

pastu dh lah balik.

had fun. not as boring as i thought i would be.

though yeah, "struggling to be IN " as usual -_______-"

thnks to nadia majid for the pictures :)

er..wat else? aku excited nk blog sjk kat sana lagi sbb tu pnjg gilaaa

ohh, balik rumah smpi around 6.

dari smpi rumah pukul 1 today, aku tidoooooooo

Whosh, paling lama aku penag tido i think

and TAK mandi like 36 hours..?

yeaaa

NOT-IN-THE-MOOD-BUT-HAVE-TO-POST-'POST'

2010-06-19T02:46:00.000-07:00

internet was down since wed.

i've been playing sims3 eversince..like lamaaa gila dah tk main

then just idk, desperate enough

Wokeyh!

hols shitzz

*sigh*

i was kinda like bersemangat eversince sanjini said "This is the last holiday you know , to study and stuff..after straight to pmr" - no not exactly those words lah. Just..

i direct planned my holiday-thanks to her yaww ;))

heh, obviously not all of it works

and im suppose to be STUDYING not DOING HOMEWORK dumbass!

i've neveeeer study/review f1/2 subs.

like total NONE ,

but ughh! i've been doing my bi homework. Itupun pun tk belum siap

kena buat until like 110 ! tk tk, tk semuaa laa

seriousss la aiyoo. NEEEED to study.

Have to..total wajib

Tonightt

Hoyeaaah, its hereee

my favfavfav petronas event (after bukak puasa at hilton )

Its a Karnival Keluarga

ada mcm concert lah concert with banyaaaak gila makanan

smpi you cant eat anything else dah.

mcm tgk pun tk lalu

And plan nk bwk tupperware, Mwehehehe

hahaha, Tk pe tkpe. Korang tgk gmbr nanti

im gonna do my job babey!

haha, hundreds over pics

byeebye, going to Bangi for this thing.

Wee~!

heeee tak de kejaa gilaa

2010-06-14T10:24:00.000-07:00

Eyy, lama suda tk post

well, just got back from Kelantan and terengganu yesterday

and second week is suppose to be my study week :)

so tgk laa mcm mana, im not really in the 'holiday;lazy mood' not as bad as it should be

Okey, last week i've posted on twitter psl this erm.."what a good photographer needs"

idk..i feels reaaaaaly wanna talk bout that. the kind of thing i can stop none stop plus a feeling of teaching plus geram. mcm nak jugak ajar dia, whatever happen. semangattt ;)

haha , so im posting it heree bcos i've found the word babayyy

-Visualise (thats the word)

A photographer who cannot visualize photographs will never advance as a photographer

ok, now arif this really is for you.

visualisation might take one whole life to be fullfil. or viceversa.

you need to observe.and think twice. think about what will the pictures "bring"

-skills

Oh well , i believe you got the skill, and skills isnt that complicated so no need explain explain laa

-Passion

Kinda related to the visualise

"best picture cames when you put your heart in it"

-___-

so what im trying to say now,

some have the passion and skills not visualisation

some have the visulisation and passion

but at the end of the day , it will all end up in a single click

and that click can changes life

Photographs are created through the vision of the photographer

that is for higher level. but for now, start by making people smile through pictures :))

*current to do list

2010-06-01T07:04:00.000-07:00

*deep deep sigh*

-Settlekan kks- tinggal elemen 3 and rujukan sikit,

-kgt TAK SAMPAI SETENGAH pun. baru buat smpi evrthing sebelum dapatan -.-

-seni belum start apa2 pun

-kemaaaas bilik. Wahaa, bilik mcm hutan. meja study dh tkda tempat nk duduk/study langsung. kerusi pun ada brg.

-buat buku2 revision tu ! ya Allah! . Haihh, i lovee to buy books. not doing . sbb mcm i love to see the collection of books.nicey

Oh, eh u guys know bout the Israel-Malaysia thing?

no? bangang, bajet tk nk berita. fikir cool sgt ah tu aa?! you're tooo typical. boring

haha, ok wtf.

just go search online laa,

Errrrrrr

2010-05-29T22:57:00.000-07:00

-Youth 10-

Went with maisara, iman and kwn mai iman

from 2~6.30

er..was quite boring ah, nothing much.

Boreddd.

Tp, bnyk laki hot.majority oooow. Perempuan tak hot2 lak -__-"

haha, *thinking of a few*

Er..went they by lrt. Dorang2. Whosh, bpk scary. Neverhh. Pegi balik oh.

tp tkpe just duduk diam2 pasang mp3. Haa, and had all kinds of thoughts. *standard things happen in lrt.

and tk bwk camera gi sana, takut hilang, (yg D60) and yg Nikon kecik ada aunty pinjam

-Prince of Persia-

OOOOOOOOOOHHHHHH, tgk kat klcc last night.

Best ! x1000

A+ for storyline- Totaaaal unpredictable. like gila wow, salute

A- for actors (Grrr) - Agak hot *blink blink * , haha. boleh lah, "could have been better"

A for the special effects ,music,location and stuff - Okey sajaa

Naah , i love the storyline, basically. *Amazed

-Alice in wonderland-

Tak tak ni tgk kat laptop je

B- for the actress,

I dnt like "alice" in that movie

"bukan standard fairy tale at all"

OOOOh love Johnny Depp as U S U A L

wee~ !

*settling my kks, last minute -.-

aku belum post lagggiiii ?! XD

2010-05-15T20:35:00.000-07:00

OOOOOH~
dh bnyk org tau pun..
Im in Ampang puteri,
cehh, no im not the admitted here
ok, my kakak sulung and my dad kena admit for dengue..
my sis since wednesday and my dad the day after
so BOTH admitted here, 547 & 529
but my dad's in icu now..actually both my sis and dad suppose to be in icu
But since my sis still young one, haha so can just do the-next-procedure here. (Platelet booster.No wait, not BOOST je transfer. mcm blood transfer la )
but my dad cannot lah..old already wat..hehe :D
Bnyk lah jgk org melawat..budak sekolah pun bnyk ;P

Well oh well,
the whole family slept here last 2 night. But since my dad's in icu so my mom,kakra and acim went home.
wohoo, ao kiranya dh 3 mlm tido sini oooooh :)
im enjoying this thingg
HAHAHAHA

but ,
adushh, next thurs exam diagnostikkkkk :O
and here i am baby..
dah BAWAK buku. Tapi belum buat ler.
hehe, insyaAllah skjp lagi
hee~

Oh yeaa,
last wednesday ada yg "Universities expo"
haha, ntah pe benda nama dia
anyway, i took few catalogs about course im intresting in
*Tak perlu tau pe saya mau -.-
yg dah tau sila senyap.dan tk perlu ungkit mengungkit. Saya tak suka *

and then me and shirene went to the counselors.
told them what im goin to take later on.
so, Pn lim ckp2 with me la, cant really hear what she said .
all i heard was :-
-The first thing you should do is check out your own self first. <--- IN THE LIST !(to do)
-When you become a mum..(= =) you are goin to need that, it doesnt have to be a career..
- Why you tk join PRS ? You should join , especially if u are intrested in it
(never really thought of joining though. But next year, maybe lah. Be chance.)
so, me going prs NEXT YEAOOOR

Just for a lil update. XD

hee

Photography session. or should we say Photoshoot ?

2010-05-11T07:09:00.000-07:00

Oh, 2 days.

day 1 :-

Class pictures,

Eeee..i think the formal would be fine. Except i was in the middle, so nmpk buruk nanti ;(

haha, the informal.. alaaah

NOT really "fun" . Sebab baru lps kena marah sbb bising, Hmm..no mood ady lor

Haishh

Day2 :-

Clubs,rumah sukan, unit beruniform and sports

Wee, tiring. Sbb lepak bawah lama sgt >.<

adush, anyway..

*ikut plan* i was supposed to take pictures for Ruby.azrie bgtau ;) Hee

Ye , aku takda jawatan..but hey i DID something XD

but somehow..masa nk ambik gmbr, mcm..cikgu tk kasi (sorang je, yg lain tk kisah -.- )

dia tk ckp directly, just some perli2 thing.

like " Ajk ter-ting-gi je kat sini"

Then mcm , lantak ah. malas layan

Eventhough that was the only one i mmg nak join , haih..so sad :(

and last2 gmbr ruby sikit gila org. HAH ! ambik kauuu ;)

Lepas tu stay for English Club and Petanque..

Last2 masa class pukul 12.15 :D

yg mcm worth joining, english's sbb diorg sikit gila org. So hey..we helped you kan ?

then stayed back for PAFA , but then Uztazah tkda.

How wasting = =

Ooh, azrie said sorry for the ruby thing masa balik

i was just really..terharu . haha, just Dont feel guilty lah.(i think dia rasa bersalah sbb i was really excited bout it )

its not your fault.not at all, mmg la aku excited gila nk join , tp aku dh expect this thing laa.

so it was like "Well..you..Go have fun !"

thanks a loooott anyway !

Smile by Charlie Chaplin. (Cover by Glee sounds better)

go check it out, those who are feeling down.

Nanaz's Story

13 March..

First month , final year

Goodbye,

60 hours to go

Past present

Day

First post for dec?oh my..

taking a few moment before leaving

Something Sometime

heyoooo

DEAD AND GONE

oh god.

Ramadhan.

singgah sebentar

getting serious

More and more of Mozac

HOME SWEET HOME?

Wassup wassup now :)

Call me belagak or wtvr. Bcos im in the mood to :P. haha , jk jk

pk1 results

school review (?)

Something short and easy

Because it is a have to post post :)

I planned my blog post while the rest were crying*literally

Cuti Cuti

D-O-N-E

worthnothingbutitsokey

Weeek revieww

*drumrolls* THE DAY I'VE IMAGINED/HOPE/PLAN TO HAPPEN FOR THE WHOLE YEAAAR

time fly fast,please

Pe-em-aaar *take 3 days to post this*

all in one aa

Ahaa

Haishh

Seriously

Eyaaaahdd *ok, idk what is that

delayed delayed

SHOUT !

UM seminar and Last day of unit beruniform koko for 2010

standard

yeayeayeayea

Haishh

The "Open Day'

Khemah Ibadah 10' !

NOT-IN-THE-MOOD-BUT-HAVE-TO-POST-'POST'

heeee tak de kejaa gilaa

*current to do list

Errrrrrr

aku belum post lagggiiii ?! XD

Photography session. or should we say Photoshoot ?

drumrolls THE DAY I'VE IMAGINED/HOPE/PLAN TO HAPPEN FOR THE WHOLE YEAAAR

Pe-em-aaar take 3 days to post this